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Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Friday, May 19, 2006
hmmm...cindy's recent post brought me back to my fear again...i hate to acknowledge it,but too bad...i have to face it once again...
yupz...after o levels i will be working.im not going to jc for the first 3 months nor the days after.im going to poly..so yay...i can work for the first 3 months...work?my goal is akltg and yes...im going to work there...no one and nothing can change my mind..my mind is set...ya...this shall be the first job in my life...though i rejoice for the fact that im entering the growing phase in my life and exploring the working world,there is this tinge of fear within me...like i said,this will be my first step into this annonymous world...there are yet many things i have to learn and endeavour...the feeling of uncertainty about the dangers trekking in the working world leaves me real scared...but this is life...maybe i do not face this much as i will be working as a part-timer,but this also accounts for the future...i guess im too used to the life at home,of being constantly showered with care and sometimes i even have the luxury of people doing things for me...BUT im neither pampered nor spoilt...its just that i live in a haven where all possible obstacles and problems of the world outside are sheltered...
i have phobias of course...and i definitely have to overcome them as part of my readiness to work...or else they will surely affect me alot...my phobia of crowds will get me nowhere next time...there are crowds everywhere that we must face in the course of our lives...oh my god...i must train myself to have more self-confidence in order to handle my phobia...
[phobias are plain psychological fears...its possible to 'eradicate' them]

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