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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Monday, June 30, 2008
the call doesn't make a difference, sad to say.if you can end our conversation so hastily, other factors could surely cause a destruction to us . i need more than a status! i tried to look on the brighter side of life 'cause i believe that i don't have paranoia. PARANOIA. hence, i dont wanna dwell about my problem. meanwhile, avoid is the thing. -300608-2301 Sunday, June 29, 2008
........................................................................................... ............................... ..................... ............ ...... .. i'm sad 'cause it seems like i'm the only who's been giving yet not receiving.. do you not miss me at all? am i so non-existent to you? it needs mutual understanding, boy............. i just need you to say that at times you did miss me too. -290608-2345
busy saturday.
woke up at 6.30am for the vision screening at serangoon CC at 8.20am. got up really "bright and early" in the morning yet i was half an hour late in the end? how could it be possible? THANKS to the taxi uncle lah! didn't know the location and ended up driving me around and around in a merry-go-round. F*** lah! another thing about the place. why is the CC located at some ulu place? we REALLY had a hard time finding it. went from serangoon to amk and back to serangoon again! argggghhhhhhhhh!!!! had to make up for an extra vision screening next semester liao! wasted my time and money.................................. had clinic in the afternoon, but left at 6.30pm. "NICE" PATIENTS! LOL. my problem's solved. thanks dear:) -290608-1502
no school on friday+mom's off day=MAKANING @CRYSTAL JADE RESTAURANT!!!!!!
cool! we love dim sum!!!!!! we had a super-duper satisfying brunch...*burppppppppppp* SORRY ABIT TOO LOUD.HAHAHA here's what we ordered:  roasted duck   chicken feet (mom's fave!)  Har-Gao (yums yums.....big fat succulent prawns inside! & they're sooo juicy!!!)   dessert: osmanthus+aloe vera in honey (cool& refreshing.....wooooo~~~) after lunch, we da-pao some pastries and bread home! there's my fave pandan sponge-cake!!!!!!!! LOVES <3 -290608-1453 Friday, June 27, 2008
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SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u gotta beat russia later!!!!! if not i gotta bid goodbye to my cash, just to treat my colleague to a meal. GAMBATTE!!!! though i'm not able to catch the match, my heart will be with you~~DONT disappoint me hor.......................*first thing in the morning will be to check the results*JIAYOU!
GOGOGO Fernando Torres! -270608-0104
LOLS!!!!!!!!
stupid lao chen said that i'm FAT! arghhhhhhhhhhh!! lemme tell you..it's not because of anyone's weight (obviously not mine!) that caused the bench to rock. you know those study benches and table tops at T6? one of them is faulty. i think the attachment between the bench tops and the ground wasn't stable, so that explains why whoever sits on it will give people an illusion that he/she is weighing the whole thingy down. and suay suay i was the last one to sit on it. that's why lao chen accused me of putting on extra weight. HMPF.LOL that's a mean thing to say to someone, especially from a guy to his female counterparts. THAT IRRITATING BRAT! hahahahaa...anyway, it's meant to be a joke. friends sometimes do act in this way. so, that's the crust of friendship for you:) -270608-0052 Wednesday, June 25, 2008
today suddenly had a strong urge to eat MAC.weird right? those who know me will get a shock as well. HAH. 'cause i usually won't get so hyper over fastfood. i'm not a health freak by the way, but it's just that junk food makes me FAT..........so i might as well take proper traditional food:). after tham's paper, i told ruth:"let's have mac for breakfast!!!!" she must be thinking:"-.-" we had hotcakes with sausage. she was amazed by my humongous appetitite this morning. i had only left half of the hotcake.......i think i added too much syrup. ate halfway and saw that the sky was turning dark, then it was pouring!!! shit! no umbrella! took a detour home from the bus stop just to get as much shelter as possible from the rain. walled past the multi-purpose hall. brought those heart-wrenching memories back to my mind. my aunt was sleeping over there, in the coffin. i miss her...............................................................she never woke up since then. -250608-1202 Monday, June 23, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KOK HOW!yeps, this post is specially for this guy ^ his birthday fancy falling on the first day of MST week. lol. just found his blog last night and saw many many pics over there! didnt know that he can also be zi-lian...(in some sense lah).. shhhh...lets do some quiet gossips about him. i think that his new haircut kinda looks cool to me.... anyway friend, lets meet up someday! & of course, with serena. and maybe she will bring another person along, who knows? HAH. -230608-1424 Friday, June 20, 2008
speaking out our blues; i thought it's a great way to relieve the inner burden and that we'll soon feel better in this way. but that's not true to me. on the contrary, i'm even more mindful and reminded of its existence. shit! that's why i didn't feel great today in the late morning. dressed up nicely and went to school, yet faced shit stuff one by one after that. date cancelled, fish&chip sucks............ i'm just so angry with the world and everything around me. now, i'm lost in the direction of life. sadly, i don't know where to head next. what should i line up my future with? i'm feeling so so restricted and isolated and all that i felt was as if i'm being cornered into a no-way-out situation. frustration's all over my face...........................who understands? so i bought a beer to calm my nerves. CHEERS. 'cause dear's not there to drink with me, i have it all by myself:(  -200608-0118
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
now i finally had the slightest understanding of how it feels of falling into the limelight of the paparazzi realm. DETESTABLE! i just want to be a normal person. i don't want to be stuck in this cat-and-mice chase.. if you don't understand me, you should have a listen to jay's "我不配" if not otherwise, the MV would be even more apprehensive. that's my plight now. i just wanna try out the sg flyer :( ling, don't look back. 8 more months to go............. -170608-0044 Sunday, June 15, 2008
went to see doc this time for flu and the med proved to be so so efficient!!!!! i felt that my flu was almost gone in just one dosage! POWERleft just one more week of holiday, meaning that MST week is even more closer to my footstep. gotta mug like hell again. fortunately, the much-dreaded flu is subsiding JUST IN TIME! not to mention the med made me sleep all day long. arghhhh~ wasted so much precious time that's supposedly being reserved for revision. didn't know that a plushy microbe can cast such tremendous effect on me!! =.- watched Incredible Tales just now on ch5 (sunday 10-10.30pm). this week's epi on bloody mary was ghostly enough to send shivers down my spine!! no wonder it cautioned "viewers discretion". hah. sometimes myths and tales do have some truth in them, so it's better to believe in what you deem fit. in accordance to religion, especially, let's have an open mind and respect the way it is :) after the show ended, i suddenly thought of wanting to surf the net to find out more about the above mentioned myth, but i dropped the idea later. curiosity kills the cat. in life, it's not a bad idea to keep that simple and innocent mind of what we used to have in the past as an adolescent. often, we want to probe further and to find out much more than what we already knew, but if the limit smacks right in front of us telling us to stop, we'd better be. my point is, the signal cautions us of what we'd better not know, ahead. it hurts, it depresses, it terrifies, it...........................................something ominous. -160608-0016 Wednesday, June 11, 2008
i'm sick lah.so sianz.................................. must be the sushi that caused food poisoning. nevermind. and that dr soo is handsome oh........ i thought it must be another uncle doc judging from the name. but i was wrong! when i entered the room, at the first glance, i was thinking "OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" he looked like julian hee!!!!!! the first thing he asked was: how old are you? hmmm..luckily i was calm enough to say "going to be 19" this doc was nice...always full of smile and maybe i should adopt his sunshine way and apply in clinic next time....then my patients will be comfortable with me..ummm! aiya...so what if he's suave? my dear is the best! hehehe *winks* -110608-1139 Monday, June 09, 2008
oh manz!who can resist GSS? i gotta control, control, CONTROL myself!!!! there're so many nice things out there but i musn't over-drain my money. arrrrgh...grrrrr.....*pouts* that's why i asked my mom: "why can't things be free in this world? & all we gotta do is just grab the ones we like and the stock never runs low!" how nice to be a dream come true................. i'm having a lingerie fetish! especially the brazilian series from Triumph. they look so nice and feel so comfy!!!!!!!!!! there's a price to pay of course! approx. 80 bucks per piece. BOMB ME ALIVE PLEASE............................... haha. *i can't run away from my guilt* i bought "some" yesterday. happy happy ^^ -090608-1456  life is really short. why struggle with the challenges it brings? though indeed life is sometimes biased, don't forget about the exceptionally good moments.. i'm pretty sure that no matter how jilted you've felt from how life has treated you, you've been real happy at least once. i learnt that life can never be balanced from a pivot point, ever. perhaps it's tilted more towards the things you hated or if you're lucky enough, you get what you want. that's why, life is not a pure black or pure white picturesque. it's a mixture of both. having it all sweet or bitter is not exciting. why not add some garnishing? even my patient can tell me: "enjoy life the way it is" truly enlightening! VIOLA! -090608-1436 Sunday, June 08, 2008
 哇噻! 我真的是太爱太爱日本版的<<花样少年少女>> 很难得会有一部能引起我的注意和兴趣的日本戏. 我想除了这部以外,应该没有下一部戏能掀起这种想去收看的冲动了吧............ 比起台湾版的, 真是天淵之别!或许我不太喜欢那些cast吧..............说也奇怪,我反而比较喜欢台湾版的<<流星花园>>. 嘻嘻^^ 日本 <<花>>的cast真是帅呆了!!! 最引起我注意的莫归于"佐野.泉" . 他好帅喔!!!!!!!! 有点像我们的singapore idol, Jonathan Leong....其他人也很好看! 女主角很可爱. 无论是女扮男装扮还是以女孩的身份出现,她总是那么可爱! 我也迷上了其中的一首ost. "Ikenai Taiyou" by Orange Range. 这首歌实在难找. 为了找它,我熬夜到一点多才睡觉.....今天终于可让我找到了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!太开心了! -080608-1624
Friday, June 06, 2008
我尝试着不被它困扰. 或许这根本只是我心理上的一个障碍,可是我过不去啊!过了一个星期,我原本还以为只要我不承认它的存在,一切就会好好过. 但事情并非如此.我又不能 把它说出口.希望只是我多心了...为什么事情总不能十全十美?为什么问题就是要出现? 什么才是百分百?我不懂. -060608-2339
How to play:
1. Put your music player on shuffle mode. 2.Press forward for each question. 3.Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. no cheating 4.With your answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions. 5.Tag 5 people. How are you feeling today? Sean Kingston: Take You There (yea..hoping for someone to date me today......) Will you get far in life? Firehouse: Love Of A Lifetime (oooh...greatest love of all la!) How do your friends see you? 张敬轩: 酷爱 (really? am i so cool?) Will you get married? Damage: Forever (what does this mean sia? take forever to get married? i wanna settle down de hor....) What is your best friend's theme song? Aaron Carter: One Better (??) What is the story of your life? Steven Curtis Chapman: I Will Be Here ( dear "will be here"........the best story is about dear! hehe) What was high school like? Mariah Carey: Touch My Body (omg! sounds so indecent!) How can you get ahead in life? Jordin Sparks: Tattoo (by getting tattoo? i scared pain lah...) What's the best thing about your friends? Maroon 5: Won't Go Home Without You (not quite so..my friends aren't that loyal yet..oopsie! ok lah...a few of them alrite?) What's in store for this weekend? 曹格: 单数 (sad.......im alone yet again....) Describe your grandparents: 张智成: 痊愈 (i like this! may their illnesses be 痊愈!!!) How's your life going? 张栋梁: 寂寞那么多 (hmmm..quite true......im feeling empty...sobs) What song will they play at your funeral? 徐若瑄: 亲爱的 (hope people will cry more to this song!!! hahahahahaha) How does the world see you? 星光班: 因为我相信 (simple trust but maybe that's plain naive....) Will you have a happy life? The Police: Every Breath You Take (huh?) Do people secretly lust after you? Keith Urban: Tonight I Wanna Cry (..until i wanna cry liao........!!) How can you make yourself happy? 潘嘉丽: 一秒钟的永远 (please explain...) What should you do with your life? 徐若瑄: 美人鱼 (i know i know...doll up like a mermaid right? hahahaha) Will you ever have children? Marie Digby: Unfold (IM VERY INTERESTED TO KNOW THIS LEH!) What song would you strip to? Kenny Rogers: Through The Years (your head lah...this song is too sentimental liao lah...) What does your mum think of you? 莫文蔚: 他不爱我 (errr mommy..pls trust that i do love u!!!) What song would be played at your wedding? Rihanna: Don't Stop The Music (hmmm can consider lo...unless mine is a las vegas wedding or at least something unconventional! this song's too hottttt!!) now i don't follow the rule: i gonna tag only 2 people: serena (alrdy done the quiz) suat hoon!
im back.
notti's back. and let's welcome the new member of this blog > my dear. actually i intended to leave this blog as the way it already is, fogged up by dust. then after last night, the urge and interest to blog came back again. 'cause sometimes there are some dark secrets i have no choice but to keep it from others. i don't know the thing im going to mention next sounds abit inappropriate or errr...wrong, but here it goes. notti is finally coming to sg . he is coming for a date with me. despite his busy schedule, he is temporarily casting his work aside to come here for a day to spend with me. in some sense, he knows that im the so-called cinderella and gotta hit home before midnight so he said we won't stay out too late. he understands me... i guess it's nothing wrong to meet up with a foreign friend and spend the day together bringing him around sg, but somehow i don't dare to tell dear. perhaps i like notti in the past....so ya......... and i guess no one can understand our friendship. on the surface, we may seem to be flirting with each other, saying those honeyed words but hey, we can take jokes! it's just our way of talking and to keep the friendship alive. hmmm..should i not tell dear about our date? if time permits, he should be coming this month. actually i thought that this is gonna be the best birthday prezzie for me and i didnt expect it to come earlier than expected. it's supposed to be a happy occasion after the hard pleading (in the past) paid off well. yes it should be. then how come im in two minds now? -060608-1143 |
