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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Saturday, December 30, 2006
 lovely? an awesome night out with cube:) picked me up with a huge bouquet of lilies and sent me home. though all we did were having a simple japanese cuisine and chatting, we enjoyed being each other's company. the chocs were very nice too... but to patrick, i felt bad for not answering his 3 missed calls and replying his smses.. oopsy daisy..i actually set my phone to silent mode and i forgot to sms him!! anyway, i had already reserved the night for cube.. & never mind i shall buy him a drink next time i see him in office. i didnt know that MIA can make someone worry for me. i thought that no one will even realise that im missing. to all (especially to patrick), have a smashing great time tonight in celebration of the coming of the new year. Happy 2007! -301206-0105 Friday, December 29, 2006
you say, am i fortunate?is this what people said "rainbow after the rain"?anyway, im going out with cube tomorrow evening and the hunt for chocolate begins!hope there's no rain tomorrow though..awaiting him to pick me up tomorrow.hehe.nitez cube:) -291206-0045 Thursday, December 28, 2006
 you know something? LOVE&HATE cannot co-exist. since it so happened to be on divided grounds, i guess i will have to hate you. i'd rather have nothing to do with you than to be your friend 'cause it will hurt me even more. haven't i inflict enough pain on myself? now it's time to kiss goodbye and i promise that i'll lead an even better and fulfilling life, without you of course. we only have some time left to be together afterwhich i will pretend not to know you at all. guess it's better to be like this. heck with loads of wonderful memories and even though i cannot bear to leave you, that will be the happy ending for me. finally i responded to the alarm. all the very best:) -281206-1831 Tuesday, December 26, 2006
im hurt badly this time. had a great fall and the world seemingly crushed down on me.the new year's resolution and christmas wishes which i wrote on those balls at esplanade will not come true for sure. yes, i knew the outcome even before they are being thrown into the sea and leave to god to handle all the wishes. well, i think i better just treat it as a drawing session 'cause none's ever going to happen. i had a great blow and whenever i thought that i've gotten over it, i just didn't. when it comes to emotions, im a dumb ass who can't even control my own feelings. there are many things i wish i didnt give in too much of my emotions, but in the end i gave in way too much. hmm..i may leave at any moment as nothing's holding me back. see how it goes. WAKEY WAKEY! we avoided eye contact. we pretended not to see each other. it wouldnt make any difference if i was not there. -271206-0001 Monday, December 25, 2006
finally, he's online.im so surprised that he supports me. i didnt know that the sentosa trip can create good impressions of each other in our heart. is this our chance? anyway.. a merry christmas to all!may lord bless ya'll with a warm and peaceful xmas. maybe my gift this year is him? -251206-0055 christmas day Saturday, December 23, 2006
Look at me You may think you see Who I really am But you'll never know me Every day It's as if I play a part Now I see If I wear a mask I can fool the world But I cannot fool my heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? I am now In a world where I Have to hide my heart And what I believe in But somehow I will show the world What's inside my heart And be loved for who I am Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection Someone I don't know? Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? There's a heart that must be Free to fly That burns with a need to know The reason why Why must we all conceal What we think, how we feel? Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? I won't pretend that I'm Someone else for all time When will my reflection show Who I am inside? When will my reflection show Who I am inside?
when i look into the mirror, is the sylvia i see genuine or is she a concealed soul who wears a mask? sometimes im confused.. -231206-2215
YAWNS..so sleepy right now but i shall stay awake just for this post.
i just came back from xmas bash party.hmm..how should i put it?alrite.if i were to rate this night out of 10, i give it 6. it's a consolation that i got to meet up with my peeps this evening and hence, in terms of whether i enjoyed it or not, i gave it a mark higher than the passing border. okok, treat it as im whining. i can see the hardwork put in by the organising committee to create this event and i really appreciate their effort, serious. there's great food and practically everyone is grooving to the beat of the music in the "disco". sometimes i do get really high and join in the madness. well, perhaps tonight i indeed revealed the so-called wilder side of myself, but i still think that clubbing is not for me. pubbing is more suitable..... i saw different sides of those people around me. some really shocked me as i felt that they did not appear to be the ones i know initially. yes, it takes time to know a person. for some reason and for some scenes, my mind suddenly went blank. im not saying that my peers are bad, but is just that i saw a totally different side of them which is beyond what words can describe. i sorta disapprove some actions but hey, i still remind myself that we are in the modern era and such impudence do happen. perhaps some people are born to be more liberal. too bad, im conservative. some people have limit while some totally lose their senses whenever there's fun.yep, i stared in disbelief. im sorry to say that i have second thoughts about coaching. another sad thing is that when i expect some people might turn up, they didn't. i was pining and hoping and praying. oh well, they still didnt come in the end. i was rather disappointed though. if they came, i might give an 8 maybe... the thing i liked most was the singing segment. though the singers are not celebrities, they put up an awesome performance nonetheless.WONDERFUL! this is the only moment i enjoyed peace:) "ALL guys only seek for fun. girls, only their momentary game. when it's due time, game over." I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND HUMAN. WHAT'S WITH THE HUMAN BEHAVIOUR? can someone enlighten me, please? -231206-0051 Thursday, December 21, 2006
my symbol: ice statue.the reason follows as what the name suggests. cold personality and accidental isolation. i thought it suits me very well, only to find out that it reveals my weak side. finding a positive symbol, what could it be? maybe you can reflect to me what i really am. -211206-2351
no. i dont like what i see everyday.
-211206-1219 Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Hey folks, I'm back from MIA!A long walk can do wonders just like how an evening or morning jog can soothe our mind, body and soul. Now then i believe what Ms Phoon had said about how a walk actually sets our mind on a thinking process. I alighted at the bus stop just now but i chose to walk home taking the longest route. That's the route i take when i jog in the past but today, I walked instead, embracing mother nature along the way. The walk indeed had proven its magic. A lot of things ran through my mind and it was hard to settle those stuff on my part. Some things do not even give me a decision to make. As I walked along the path, I thought how nice it would be if the route was a neverending one and I wanna walk walk and walk to the end where the earth sets a limit to. I walked really slow this time and it took me nearly half an hour to reach home but what have I gained? It was a refreshing walk into my heart as it brought me back to the very point where confusion grows. I began to think back...and was wondering what could be happening to me now and in the future. I was strong enough to hold on to my tears. Some scenes may mean nothing to you but it matters to me as it happened right in front of me. Some gestures may not hold really much of a significance but it flags a red light to me that I mean nothing to you. Some people may give me the cold shoulder but I don't really care. If it's you, my world may collapse. You did not make me feel left out, I know that. However a barrier still resides in me. It's those things you do with other people that make me felt both envious and neglected. Today, I found a new symbol for myself: an ice statue. Yep, it's easy to break me. a warm & hearty conversation going on, but lonely and cold she sat.................................... -201206-1825 Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I chanced upon a video clip in my email today. Actually I knew that it exists but the thing is that I hate to open it. Well, there's a reason behind it. Suddenly its existence came into my head and I decided to watch it all over again. It's supposed to be a cheerful and lively atmosphere as shown in the video but nostalgia just had to hit me so hard that I can't help but letting my tears flow. Great memories...Just a short video clip of 29 seconds but the memories are so everlasting and fresh in my heart.I just want to be your friend, period. -121206-1607
Do you have so much to do during the day you literally forget to eat - but then find yourself making up for it before bedtime? If so, the types of foods you choose could make a big difference in the quality of your sleep.
First, let's look at the foods that are most likely to keep you tossing and turning. 1. Caffeine. Now, you don't need a doctor to tell you that caffeine will keep you awake, but it can lurk in unexpected places. Chocolate not only contains caffeine but also alkaloids which have a stimulating effect. 2. Alcohol helps many of us feel calm and relaxed - especially that half glass of wine after a long, hard day. While this may help you fall asleep initially, it greatly diminishes the quality of sleep by disturbing neurotransmitter production, including serotonin. Alcohol is also a diuretic and may keep you running to the bathroom all night. 3. Fatty foods take longer to work their way through your system, and the process of digestion can keep you awake. Fatty foods can also exacerbate heartburn. Spicy foods make heartburn worse as well. 4. Artificial sweeteners like aspartame contain phenylalanine and aspartic acid, both of which are excitatory. So what can you raid the refrigerator for to limit the sheep count? It has a lot to do with serotonin. 1. Milk (warm or not) contains tryptophan, a precursor to serotonin. It's tryptophan in turkey that makes us so sleepy after that Thanksgiving dinner. Cheese, chicken, soy, yogurt, nuts and seeds also have tryptophan. Eat these (and all foods) at least 45 minutes prior to your planned bedtime. 2. Complex carbohydrates like beans, nuts, seeds, sweet potatoes, apples, pears, and berries can also help increase serotonin levels. Watch out for simple carbs like rice, pasta, and white bread. The impact these have on blood sugar can disturb the sleep cycle. 3. Vitamins B6 and B12 are necessary for your body to generate serotonin. B6 can be found in turkey, chicken, spinach, whole grains and seafood and B12 in animal-derived products like eggs and dairy foods. 4. Magnesium-rich foods like leafy green vegetables, whole grains, and almonds can also facilitate sleep.
I didn't expect some things to happen, yet they just happened.OH GREAT.
I don't like short-term relationships because I can't feel the sincerity of the other party. Who knows he may just be fooling around with your feelings and in the end hurts you with a great blow. being your date for the party is alright, but not anything more than that. like what you said, i don't want to play with fire. if it's otherwise, prove to me:) -121206-0023 Thursday, December 07, 2006
happy happy..really spent a rockin' night at AK..saw angel and peeps and got to make new friends like Bong/Ben,Navin? (shit..i dont know how to spell their names..),Jiayu,Javier and Kelvin!!!!!!!!!!!! wheehehehehe..even took pictures with them.. Kelvin's quite a good catch but too bad, he's gotten a girlfriend!He's the type of guy i admire..studious beng...=p oh well..waiting for angel to send me the pics.my handphone has limited memory:X used salesgirl tactic to promote about the xmas tea party..hope that parents will sign up for their kids eventually:-) if it's like what jiayu said......... i don't even dare to dream about it.. perhaps last time i used to but, now i don't. -071206-0021 Tuesday, December 05, 2006
I still can't help but think that the world is unfair whenever I'm feeling down. Perseverance may sometimes even go down the drain when we think that it will defintely pay off at the end of the day. Sometimes it's a good to persevere but sometimes it is not. I love to persevere as I believe that miracles do happen. I will not give up till my last drawn breathe. However, people like me may be deemed as fools. "give up..","don't be silly..." are words of advice from bystanders. There's still a lil' hope in me that my birthday wishes will come true. Nah. My dreams and wishes have yet to come true....................................................................How come the least expected always happen to us? It's really out of my imagination. Yet the thing I want will never come to me? What a disaster! I pictured that I paint a beautiful portrait of us and framed it all up. Then, I locked it in my miniature warm and hearty storeroom. Whenever I miss you, I take it out to have a look and put it back. Never ever will this painting be disposed of 'cause there's flaming love. -051206-1732 Friday, December 01, 2006
Many things happened today and all were happy chirpy stuff. Tan Lili allowed me to retake her test and after that i was lectured by chris ng. Though that was supposed to be a lecturing session, I felt great and at ease that he's scolding me. At least I won't feel bad in my heart, as though owing him any favor. I pon his lecture last week and the way he scolded me and kevin were really funny. He rattled with some interrogating questions then at the end he said "end of scolding session. You all may go out". We ended up laughing. Yep, I realised my mistake..Yang meh meh's mcqs were the most tricky ones I've ever encountered. Some choices left us helpless as to choose the right answer. The choices were "yes", "no", "depends on situations" and "sometimes".okie... I saw cube again but this time I saw him at a faraway distance. I was leaving the library and at a few blocks away, I saw him without any mistake. Long-sightedness.......... Just came home from SK closing ceremony. I love this segment the most as I get to see parents and their children hugging each other and this wasn't what we get to see in our daily lives. You gotta agree that as human beings, we are actually quite stingy with compliments and not to say, saying the simple 3-lettered "I love you". People may find it mushy to say to their parents though deep down they love their parents nonetheless. Tonight, one by one went up to the stage and mustered their courage to express their hidden but present love for their parents. It's somehow a little copycat for every single child who went up the stage to ask their parents to stand up, as the first child did this and the rest hence followed. BUT..this shows alot that the child appreciates their parents and the latter are proud of their children too. This love, its goes two way and this should be how love is reciprocated. I get a little emotional at the last part when the children went to hug their parents. A particular scene warmed my heart the most, which was when the girl hugged and kissed her dad and her dad kissed her too. This happened to me when I was a baby then. There was another daddy who hugged and patted hard on his son's back (perhaps as a form of encouragement?). Tears actually brimmed along my eyes and it really touched me alot. Why parents and children often can't see eye to eye? Why my dad loves to ask me this question "how come you're home so late when you can be home much earlier?"? How come he doesn'y say "girl,you're finally back.."? At least this kind of question shoes abit of concern and love. The previous one sounds more of an interrogation, which I hated most. It's not that late moreover, so there's no need for you to get so uptight. Saw Angel,Cheryl,Arul,Kenneth Chan,Zhiqin,Donny at AK. These were the ones whom I coached with last year. Angel grew prettier....and Donny grew more tanned and more handsome. I don't see any change in the rest though...Later, me and Donny went to do grocery shopping at NTUC and walk walk talk talk that kind......Really glad to see my friends again! Glad that all's well and everyone's doing fine in their lives. Donny's in the police force (NS) and he looked awesomely cool in the police tee and pants and shoes. -021206-0013 |
