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the.girl


Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams



Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK
But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me


we had supper at adam road food centre together with C.
& god knows just why he had to go to other corner to have a puff and left me and C alone.
he had prawn mee, i had mee goreng and C had roti john..
lemme share a joke here:
C and i were cracking our brains to decide what to order at a prata stall.
i was hoping to try the banana prata and C made the choice of roti john just as fast.
he ordered for me but the indian man replied : "no more prata"
ok..then i said: "i shall have murtabak then"
before this i didn't hear him whisper to C "no more flour"
and 'coz of this, he got so agitated when he heard i wanted to order murtabak.
he said: "i told you no more flour!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA..*pengz*
hence, table 67 had a so-called "dispute" with that indian man.
just then, he thought of ordering prata.
so i said to him: "ok you go ahead and order lor and tell him you're from table 67. confirm he surely break into fits!"
hahahahaha..
-310707-0242

Sunday, July 29, 2007
you can call me biased all you want. haha..i don't care..
my arms sored today.
hadn't been carrying heavy stuff for a long time and suddenly i moved loads of goods today at stockist.
6 big bags in total which contained stuff like cookies that were stored in metal tins.
can you imagine how heavy they were?
and i had to hide from the pouring rain.
sheer tiring.
3 bags belonged to you.
but i just transported them back home just for you without any heaves of grumbles.
see..it's so easy to get a favor from me and especially since it's from you.
did you appreciate it?
okay lah..we shared carrot cake anyway but you oughta treat me to something nicer next time.

i would brave all dangers for you though it's beyond my control,
carry tons of goods though my fingers are tearing apart,
spend all the free time with you though it's tantamount to plain waiting.




so you see..
that's the power of love :)
from what you said, i guess you would make a good dad.

-290707-0149

Friday, July 27, 2007




do you remember these places?

we've been there before. the only night when we spent the most time together.

even though it was past midnight at that time and we missed the last bus, i even thought that how nice would it be if we never reached home no matter how long we combed the streets.

it wasn't only just me and you that night but it seemed as if the whole time belonged to us.

iloveyouXXXXX.

-270707-0032


Thursday, July 26, 2007
highly stressed!
it's been such a long time since i last had this feeling.
& now it came back with greater impact on my mood.
8 exams/tests in a week.
i repeat: IN A WEEK!
time is running short and i always had this feeling that there are still so many stuff not done yet.
and i wonder who decides or rather came up with this logic that we can only have 24 hours per day.
can i increase the number of hours in a day?
no, it will never be enough for me, especially in this peak period.
i believe that not just me alone, my peers are undergoing a stressful period now.
you know what?
my head is exploding, not even mentioning yet about anxiety.
i'm so lost!
i feel like i'm standing at a crossroad junction, stoning and staring blankly at those vehicles which are horning at me.
i'm going crazy manz.
sheer madness!!!!!!!
and that asshole dr koh.
i've never had a good impression of her. neither did she have a good impression of me.
heck it.
i ask you a question obviously indicates that i have doubt, if not why would i even want to ask you?
dumbo f***.
quit and go elsewhere lah!



today i met some uberly weird people whom i think there's a screwloose somewhere in their brain structure.
1st up at my house area.
3 boys said to me "xiao jie, we love you"
okay.
over at tg pagar bus stop just when i was shuffling my steps to get out of the bus crowd, i was stopped by a guy who spouted "hello" to me.
siao. as if i know you -.-
never mind..
when i was waiting for bus outside a pub, an uncle got really close to me from behind, giving me a shock!
yes, he's an unkempt looking uncle!
he said something to me as well but i just didn't catch it.



but having said that, other than trying our gowns at tg pagar, we proceeded to maxwell market soon after for dinner.
the gown is really low cut and gorgeous. i love it so much.
even after TBC, i guess my affinity with green doesn't stop here.
this gown will be green again but the cutting is awesome!
oscar night @ NLC.
i'll be there!

at maxwell market, zoe said something very funny.
there is a saying behind the way we hold our chopsticks which is for example, if you hold them at the top ends, you will marry someone far away from you.
since my chopsticks crossed, it means that i will marry someone next to me.
and, that fella was just sitting opposite me.
not only that, zoe all the while thought that he lives next to me.
oh man..what's she hinting?
if other people can sense it and if he can't, he will be the biggest dumbo.

-270707-0019

it didn't help at all.
moments ago i thought of removing him from my featured friend list in friendster.
i removed him, thinking of finding someone else to replace him.
but but but..
ironically i added him back again and this time round he's my #1.
siao liao~
why can't i just successfully get him out of my life?

i still can't familiarise myself with the word "independence".
how?
rarrrr..
i'm too emotionally dependent on him, but isn't this the case when that person is the one you like?

how can i make you jealous?
how can i know the level of friendship?
how can i make you like me?



since fate brought us together, where are we heading to ultimately?





when you saw me and C in the darkened control room only,
what was the feeling when you stepped in?
you know what?
i was peeping outside, looking at you.
my visual field is none other than scanning the crowd and picking you out of the rest.
XXXXX, wo zhen de hen xi huan ni!!!!!
ni zhi dao ma?
ni gan jue dao ma???

-260707-0117

Sunday, July 22, 2007
XXXXX



i just pretended to be asleep in your car just now.
keeping quiet was nothing uncommon i guess.
is it that the call was a symbol of care and concern?
though the question was obviously lame, but my heart still loves to hear it.


sometimes i do wonder how things can get so uncertain.
which is real and which is fake,
i've become less sensitive to it ever since i met you.


so how?
do you feel proud of me today?
i merely do it your way and reiterate your admiring qualities.



to me, you're almost near to perfection.
the close 0.00000000001 difference is that you're too popular with girls.
i do feel insecure and hence i chose to keep a distance from you these few days as much as possible.
when you notice i'm quiet, do you sense something wrong?
i'm hoping that you can look deeper into it.
things don't just change overnight you know?

when you see i'm with c, you're sarcastic.
the same thing applies when i see you with the 2 girls, i'm sour!



but could you tell me something please?
in your eyes, am i just your subordinate?
all those concern..i hope they are not situated at this level of unwanted "joy".

do i stand a chance, boy?


hmm..you gotta stand my monotonous expressions and stuff for the time being..

-220707-0122

Saturday, July 21, 2007
okay.
suat hoon helped me alot today.
but it hits me in the mind, thinking that if she didn't help me or at least notify him about the problem, could he have sensed it?

i gave him the cold shoulders today.
not that i'm pitting myself against him, it could be probably due to the exam blues and some fatigue.
furthermore, my gastric and tummy hadn't been too good either.

it was until he asked me this question after meeting ended:
"are you okay? how come you 'dao' me today? so 'dao' and quiet..is it because you're still sick?"

then shikun joined us later.
he said something like "norh..the one whom you went to admire the moon with"
what the..
that was like long ago..
when we just hanged around at night at Genting.
if not for the fact that he was happily enjoying himself with the girls at the casino.
hmpf.




DO YOU TRULY CARE FOR ME?
is there any tiny miny tinge of sourness?
hmm?

-210707-0152

Friday, July 20, 2007
maybe i shouldn't have lost my temper the other day.
better believe in karma because what goes around comes around.
perhaps he'd seen my ugliest side now.
sighs. sometimes mood and emotions aren't up to us to control.
they just happened.
well. i took the initiative to sms him my apology.
no reply. then another one.
again no reply.
i got worried manz. is he angry with me?
now everything is back to normal, but somehow or another i could sense that a particular thing ain't the same anymore.
i don't even know how to describe it but....but..
the courage i finally mustered to profess my feelings had shrunk back again.


your words sometimes really made me feel bad, as if i'm depending on you for everything.
i'm not so fragile to the extent ok?
but can't you just look deeper into what i always say?


ahhhhh..
i love you XXXXX!


now i'm sick again.
hugged wu gui the whole day 'cause the fact that it was from you just gave me more reason to recover fast.

-200707-0138

Wednesday, July 18, 2007
shucks!
got a bad headache this morning after walking in the rain last night.
run? you told me to run?
EH HELLO. IM WEARING HEELS.


last night was very enjoyable.
this sort of occasional get-together became so much more significant and crazy.
i met vivian at dover mrt then we went to lot1 to look for sam laogong.
sam still looked the same except that he dyed his hair black.
vivian is as cute as ever, now coupled a little tinge of maturity because of her long curls.
OHMYGOD i love them so so so much!!!!!!!!
at least better than that fella.
hmpf.

the funny thing was that we gave all sorts of terms for ourselves.
vivian called sam "papa"(in a typical chinese accent).
i called both sam and vivian "laogong".
they both called me "laopo".
& vivian suddenly called me "mama".
nonsense!



we went to eat at a hongkong restaurant and we indeed had a hard time placing our orders because all the dishes had flowery names which interfered with our decisions.
it seemed that all drinks there were topped with a scoop of ice-cream.
that was what we saw!!
really. even the ice lemon tea had ice-cream too!
then we saw this term "yuan yang".
hehe. so we ordered "yuan yang rice", "ice yuan yang", "honeydew sago" and "mango pudding".
the meal was so sumptious! *slurp*



we met on 17/7/07, sat at table 17 and the total cost was $17.70.
sheer coincidence.
haha.




over at levis, me and vivian enjoyed drawing on a carton box which was upoosedly what sam had to return to the company.
being naughty, we drew a pig and even add on some make-up.
hence we stayed at levis until it was going to be 10pm and the security uncle had actually closed all the shutters by then.
we hurriedly took the escalators downstairs and left by the other exit.




vivian and me then took the train.
she was going home while i was going to amk to look for that fella.
all the effort but it brought no returns.
guess i'm not worth his sacrifice yet.
rarr!



note the fun:

this was sam without make-up.

now with some mascara and eyeliner and blush and lipstick and lipliner.

see the difference? sam is complete with eyeshadow!! haha

reminiscence. this was the thing that almost landed me and vivian being locked up in BHG. kudos to sam's drawing of his cool face.


yums!!

our "ice yuan yang". sweet right? i mean us, not the drink. haha. this drink was amazing. before eating, it tasted like tea but after eating, it tasted like coffee. is there anything wrong with our tastebuds?
handsome laogong savouring his honeydew sago.

he's just so fortunate. i didn't even have the chance to feed that fella.


kai ling and sze ling.


:D

happy3

daughter and papa.


laogong&laopo. vivian even said that we have couple look. rubbish! haha


streetwear.





but afterall, i still love you only.

-180707-1709



good!
you dumped me alone to take the bus home in the cold night.
when i came to think about it in the bus, my heart just sored.

if you want me to be independent at work, i can.
but can't you be more sympathetic towards me?
can't you just KINDLY accompany me?
show a lil more tender loving care please?????

i purposely didn't want to pick up your call.
what's the use of explaining to me since you wanted to do it that way?
fartup.
i could have just ignored your 2nd call but surprisingly somehow or another, i could not bear to bring myself to ignore you again.
goddamn ironical.
see..you got my feelings all upside down.
i guessed you've sensed my mood then until you have to ask "are you ok?"
what do you think???!!!! argh.
i'm still not going to call you even you've asked me to.
INDEPENDENT RIGHT?

THAT'S IT!





you faggot.




-180707-0116

Tuesday, July 17, 2007
the hug you gave was so warm and sweet.

i experienced the first time in your arms.
it was a peaceful nest that i could rest on.
it saw me through the obstacles with loads of reminiscence;
bittersweet process snuggled up with a hug.



the gestures-to smile,

the messages-to smile
melted a frozen curve on my lips.
'cause the reminder's not something to miss,

for i listen,
i listen to you.



a simple thought rang significant feelings.
heart's pulsating in jovial beats.
i did not regret giving my hug, indeed.

if time was longer by just a minute,
tears would have flowed by then.
let your shoulders be my protective shield.




haven't i make myself clear just now?
or was it that you paid not enough attention?
it was obviously you!
i was professing my feelings you know?
one day i shall fill you in with the full plot.
ilu-





the wu gui,
i hugged it to sleep last night.
my only toy from you.
will deeply treasure it safe in my arms.



-170707-0103


Saturday, July 14, 2007
oh manz..
though we're just a seat apart, i could see his face so clearly.
what i mean here isn't about my vision but the thing i wanna put across is that..
he's so handsome!!!!!!!
i finally got a chance to have a close look at his facial features again.
wow! they are so beautiful!
it's no wonder why girls fall for him.
he has mesmerizing eyes, high nose bridge, "sexy" lips and everything was in place nicely.
can you visualise that?
fate just wants him to be handsome.
haha.

especially when he donned that attire tonight.
my boss lookalike.
cool~

i love the chat just now when we're on our way to atm.
casual and fun though our topic encircles the same thing always.

i'm sorry for my tone this morning.
& i didn't expect you to apologise too.
my fault. i should have understood your stand.
i was shocked actually.
it was the first time i heard you using this kind of tone.
i'd rather you be my "happy dad".
ilu-

-140707-0109

Thursday, July 12, 2007
KO!
aching legs.

initially i only thought of dating him.
well, he replied me early in the morning that he could make it tonight.
GOODNESS! i didn't expect such a straightforward answer,
but of course this sets my day right and cheerful throughout.
i still remember that when i was doing my practical in lab this morning, i was so high despite the norm of hating lessons like these when i couldn't even pick up my energy.
today must have been a miracle!
i was hoping that lessons would end fast so that i could meet him earlier.

just when i thought that there were only the two of us,
suddenly it popped out another person.
well okay, this guy's basically our friend too,
but i was slightly disappointed and perturbed by the fact that this fella has sort of like intruded our privacy and OUR DATE!


HE picked a top for me.
at first i thought that it looked plain normal but after making that decision for me, i began to discover the beauty of that blouse.
and because of this special momento, i would surely win the competition.
haha.
my POWER blouse!

afterwhich i headed to citylink and suntec city BUT BUT BUT....
i couldn't find my hot shorts.
i told him : without you around, you see, i bought nothing.
serious..he's my lucky star.
when i was at west mall, i almost gave up searching and on the verge of leaving for citylink.
however, this second time miraculously let me found what i want.



he left.
he didn't accompany me to citylink.
well, i tried all means to persuade him.
but i do agree that his stuff is more urgent and important than mine.
okok..
but he said my words were very "suan".

then i asked my friend.
"do you find my words suan just now?"
he said no.
"only to whom your words matter alot, then that person will find it suan."
that's what he replied me.


hmm.........

-120707-2345

Wednesday, July 11, 2007
now i have no idea how to continue this entry..
hmmmm..


just wanna say that 4 hours ago, i met him.
well, and this was exactly what happened 2 months ago.
this time round, it was more of a appreciation session i had with him as compared to the past which was more of an opportunity to know ourselves better.
however, tonight's meeting gave me an even more compelling reason to grasp his character.
what's more is that from him, i see a down-to-earth personality added with filial piety.
it's quite a shame that i gotta learn this from him after living for these 17+ years.
thanks boy..i'm so fortunate to have you with me in times when thunderstorms could really kill my morale.
i know that i'm not alone as i believe you will go through everything with me.
i did not regret "wasting time" with you tonight.
an occasional or fortnight meeting like this is just what i ever needed to bounce back to normal, facing reality with optimism once again.
i was so touched that you came down personally for me.
i guess you must have waited quite long at the carpark.
it was funny when you said that you won't leave until and unless i said those words to daddy.
for this, i sincerely thank you.
i could still visualise the scene as if it just happened moments ago.
i was standing by my room's window looking at you, and there you were waiting at the carpark looking up at me.
all kinds of silly gestures like shooing you away but you're still glued to the ground (as if nothing could blow you away).
despite all these, we still had to communicate through mobile.
CRAPPY.
i think this was the first time someone ever waited for me downstairs and you set the record, boy.
i love when you waved goodbye but how i wished i was downstairs to bid you goodbye.






your words hold a thousand strength,
a million influence
& a billion charm.
love@infinity:)

-110707-0127

Sunday, July 08, 2007
Try this!


SCORPIO - The Addict
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humour. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT Kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Caring
VIRGO - The One that Waits
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only.
LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However not the kind of person you wanna mess with...you might end up crying
ARIES - The Liar
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, Addictive. Loud.
AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic.Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.
GEMINI - Irresistible (ME)
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in the you know where... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out.Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.
LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in longrelationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.
CANCER - The Cutie
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great telling stories. Not a Fighter But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
PISCES - The Partner for Life
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around.Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always getswhat he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.
CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships.Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to own Gemini's in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.
TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!
SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind.Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with ... you might end up crying.

How true this is for you i don't know, but for mine it's 3/4 true! (are you sure someone loves me right now?)
and for his too!
haha

-080707-0108

woohoo!!!!!!!!!!
i discovered a new and improved method to get rid of whiteheads!
i have tried it myself and results prove that it is far more effective than the conventional methods of squeezing or what have you.
absolute truth!
*ask and you may get*

i've been learning about beauty for these past 2 months and everything is still in the learning process, setting a stable mould for me to hone my skills someday.
as far as outlook is concerned, i will not hesitate to find out more about it.
frankly speaking, the basics of all these still lies in having a healthy and glowing skin.
i've been doing my research in this area and hopefully it can help the ones around me, educating them that a little hard work is definitely worth the costs.
if you're still concerned in certain areas regarding your appearance, god bless you because you are not a total dummy:)
girls and guys, it's perfectly timely now to take a closer look at your precious skin.
treasure it before it loses it's radiance once age catches up.
do you claim that you will readily accept the fact that you've aged?
c'mon! though we may say that it's the natural process, don't tell me how you feel inside.
i know it's sour!
even the oldest person would still want to return to the good 'ol days.
please..
& PLEASE have more awareness to this warning signal to ageing!

-080707-0057

Saturday, July 07, 2007
i damn enjoyed the car ride just now.
*looking at each other through the rear mirrors*
full of his voice and jokes.
this was the shortest trip EVER to m'sia.
what a waste! first time he's with me and it ended fast.

if i tell suat hoon about this, she surely would ask me to APPRECIATE.
yes yes..APPRECIATION comes from enjoying the simple little things which we're fogged of in this fast-paced reality world.
we go for complexicity, but in the end results in ourselves getting hurt.
but we all know that said is easier than done.
in fact, we may show our appreciation to the things around us.
the question reckons only whether if we've sort out our feelings.
it's like: yes, i appreciate his care and concern
but i tend to oversee that as caring towards someone's sis.
and i just don't like this feeling.
i realise i've fallen in love with him.
& it would be nice if he falls in love with me too.

i entered JB to collect my gown for next week's pageant just now.
a nice pale lime green gown which makes me worry as well because it's tripping me over.
& so i walked with care just now during fitting but couldn't help stepping onto it.
i still remember the feeling i had over me after i've donned the dress.
when i stepped out of the room, i walked to the living room where the guys were and wanted to get their opinions.
he was there as well, watching the kids play PS2.
i strolled and appeared right in front of them, wondering how he felt.
my mind was all about him because his words matter the most to me.
frankly speaking, i was quite shy at that instant and didn't dare to look straight at him.
but what i heard from him was "beautiful"
and others said that the crown will be mine.
ok lah..i accept it but the thing is i just shut everything except words from his mouth.
haha..bad right?
you know what?
i felt like i was the bride just now yea?
and i was like walking slowly towards the groom or something.
*blush*
the picturesque image in the virtual mind.
AWESOME!
if it plays the wedding song..
wow..wonderful!
hehe.
well, i'm waiting for him to don his ultra cool tuxedo ('cause i believe he will look suave in it, and with a pair of eyes that kills, girls be prepared! see and that's all.haha.)
and i will be wearing the very same gown..holding his arm, walking down the aisle.
and tell you what..
this day is coming soon!
stay tuned*

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(this day happens in every decade. and i congratulate those lovebirds dedicating their life to the other on this special day.)

Friday, July 06, 2007
my new energy song:
ting bu dao-mayday

YES!
'cause he sounds exactly like ah xin.
shucks.

i was listening to my mp3 just now,
everything was as fine as it could be.
then when it played this song,
suddenly saw his image in my mind.
eeeee~
haha
ghost lah..keeps haunting me..
but he's a good one..like the friendly casper.

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now the night comes..

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Thursday, July 05, 2007



what's my feeling?
indescribable, but definitely not feeling too good.
in the bus last night, why did you have to remind me of pat?
you said: maybe he's sick, so that's why he left you.
that would be a nice reason though.
i'd rather buy it than to believe that he's enjoying a wild time with someone out there.
i know this sounds selfish, i just can't accept it.




"GIRL AND BOY DATE WHEN THE FEELING'S JUST RIGHT.
WHO STILL CARES ABOUT A LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP?


WE GO FOR FUN AND MADNESS.


KISSES? NOT AN ISSUE ANYMORE.
THE ISSUE IS HOW FUN THE TOY COULD BE"

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
how ya feel last nite?
how come i just don't seem to sense anything?

how ya feel when he shared my spoon?
how ya feel when he wanted me to feed him? (i seriously don't wish to. why did ya just bring 2 forks? the slice of cake's for me and you to share only?)
how ya feel when he sat up close to me?
how ya feel when he used that culture on me?

i tried to find some connection to you in the bus.
i searched for eye contact but our eyes just didn't met.

when i told ya about it, was that shock for real?
you're sure you cared?
do you know that after he left, i got a sudden urge to hug you?
let me cry in your arms for once please?

& why ya had to ask me those questions to bring back those memories which i tried hard to forget?
well, it may be unintentional on your part,
but it rubbed salt to my wound.
i treat ya like my confidante and opened my heart to relate the story to ya.
if you didn't pick up that call, i would have teared infront of you.

before that, why did you have to mention about that woman?
so what if she's related to some superstar?
even he could see i'm jealous.
i just pretended to listen and hell, can you finish on that part quick?

when he asked me in the foodcourt: is that your beau?
how i wish!
how i wish the answer was yes!
when he asked: are you both on a date?
how i wish!
how i wish the answer was yes!
looking at you, i just swallowed that answer back to the heart.
"no lah. we're just meeting up"
when he said: you both are so "ai mei"
are we? or that's the only natural way towards a friend?
hints; you just couldn't catch it.

at that instant, have you ever thought of protecting me?

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im still munching away on my Katjes apple flavour.
i do get hungry easily nowadays and i'm actually quite satisfied at the rate i'm pampering my tummy.
i wonder why. but who cares as long as i can put on some desired weight.
i was super hungry just now during gems and the hunger pangs just sounded louder and louder, fortunately no one heard me though.
*crossed my fingers* and prayed hard for a break and i bugged mervin to follow me to the mac.
bought a double cheeseburger and we entered the class later than anyone else.
when i stepped in, those sitting behind suddenly turned and looked at me.
must be the aroma of the life-saving burger.
when i reached home, i'm still happily scavenging for snacks here and there.
oh yes, recently i was amazed by the wonders of how packets of seaweeds can improve the taste of maggie mee.
trust me.
buy those korean big bowls and add some seaweeds into it.
let them soak until they're soggy and ENJOY!
yum!

so that's my post on food.
hehe

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