i was crying infront of my lappie last night when i read his facebook message, telling me that rynn is not coming to sg in december anymore.
my heart instantly dropped coz i know notti is not coming either.
rynn is my idol but the greatest disappointment lies in notti.
that means i had not seen him for the whole of 2010!!!!
i miss him like mad.
memories in 2009 are as fresh as yesterday's but i wish he can be physically here.
coz....
i wanna give him a real tight hug........................

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tonight i wanna cry.
dont ask me why, thanks.

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my conclusion is: there are so many handsome-looking guys out there, but what makes me love notti so much and no one else?

i dont know.

maybe it's fate that our paths met, but to how our future is gonna be like, i have no idea.

pssssst psst psssst psssssssssssssst......

anyway, just when i was in facebook, i accidentally stumbled upon some pics which notti took with a little girl called abby.
so cute and so natural.
seeing the pics somehow warms my heart, especially when he's like 'playing' with the girl.
sweet.
if he's married earlier, it could be father and daughter.
awwwww......................................
just that kind of warm family scene/portrait that gives me this wriggly touched feeling ya?
i mean...he really looks like a kind daddy.

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it is the same everywhere in singapore, in the world, and in the universe.
lamented on it with a silent sigh.
my mouth is shut with a million roaring words.
yes, i mean those that only my soul hears.

-041110-2336

失败！失败！very 失败！！！！！！！！！！！
shit lah.

first was the makeup.
actually i was expecting something more to be done.
just felt that today's makeup was really not up to standard, lest talking about it being one of the services in a bridal boutique where brides and ladies have to depend on it so much.
or could it be that im too perfectionist?
or because notti is a makeup artiste so i assume all makeup artistes should be like him, if not at least inherit 80% of his standard.
the eyeshadow could be a lil more smoky while the eyeliner below SHOULD NOT look as if the makeup has smudged!
there is a difference okay?!
blusher could have been thicker. *hello, im not having nude makeup!*
arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey, are you really a makeup artiste?

and.....

photographer sucks as well.
i appreciate him for moving the fan over to create the flowing-hair look.
but to my horror, stupid him did not realise that the wind blew my doll fringe away, leaving my high forehead exposed.
that is so damn ugly!
it is exactly because of this reason that i decided to don a doll fringe, yet he............
there are other ways to creating the flowing-hair look than to let the damn fan blew at me straight!
if dont know, can ask me mah.
i can take nicer zi-pai than him lo.
no wonder i rejected 9 out of 10 photos in that particular backdrop.
they made me so dejected after looking through the photos in the comp.
kaoz.
i still feel that i look more pretty in my own pics.
FAILURE.

i cant mention the name of the boutique.
hint is, it is located somewhere in singapore selling nice laksa.
sianz to the max!

what's the point of having a makeover which makes you feel that you dont look pretty in the pics?
fking uglified.
BOO.

it is really not my day today.
damn suay.
my contacts broke, makeover was a goner, and lastly i left my sandals there.
shit.
i can only collect them 1 mth later.
PUI!
thought i can live a celebrity's life today but all went absolutely WRONG!

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HATES!
-LIZARDS
-players
-unreasonable toots
-almond
-going for morning class
-being treated as transparent

LOVES <3
-baking
-cosmetics
-boozing (w/o getting a heavy head!)
-people who dote on me
-acts of service

Not looking anymore other than a stupid notti.

hey, if you know me well enough, i bet you'd LOVE ME!