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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Tuesday, July 27, 2010
i said this in msn just now: "if u ask me, seriously, i hate a life like this."yes, i dont like stress, dont like someone as a dictator, and i like only my comfort zone. wonder when i can put an end to all these... it's driving me mad dude! 'cause i already had an answer, i hate studies, period. life is not as fulfiling as it seems, god knows how hard im trying to brace myself up and to struggle for something i dont even see the purpose in doing so. im stale, im stiff, im liveless, im as alive yet as dead as a zombie. im tired, im pale, im as healthy yet as weak as a patient. i grumbled, i complained, im as whiny as a child yet they are unheard. i sighed, i lamented, im as unmotivated as a good-for-nothing yet i fought hard to create hopes. but i say, strength is limited. probably, i say probably, it could give way. til then, i may just collapse. as long as love is not concerned, the most torturous thing in life is doing something against your own wish. just when im puking out these shit in msn, fortunately someone threw me a pleasant surprise. he's back from india. god knows how worried i was, wondering if he can adapt to the local food there and if his stomach is fine. since now he's back, i can rest my worries :) good news, he will be coming soon. however on the downside, it means that he wont be coming to my chalet. nevermind......... at least i can see him again. you know its kinda weird when i was emo-ing then something got my heart racing? it's like 360 deg turnaround...yea... if u watch PS Man, you will understand that kind of absurd, unexplainable feeling when 马小茜 chats online with 夏和杰. -280710-0018 Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
i had almost forgotten how your voice sounded like coz our last verbal conversation ended 10 mths ago...looks like my memory starts to fail me... it was until just now when i accidentally chanced upon your video that i recall your voice and the way you speak. you might think that is so pathetic right? haiz........... just as much as how i do not wish to trouble him, i do hope that he will turn up at my bday party. waiting for his reply.................. geez. when it comes to love, erm....i mean...when it comes to him, my thoughts contradict themselves. -220710-0000
刚刚在facebook里add了一个小学的朋友。
其实在近年里我已经知道她的样子有180度的转变，在性格上也染上了烟瘾。 当然，她的确变得比以前漂亮，也变得性感和狂野。 我还是比较喜欢以前的她耶！ 不过。。。。 有两个地方我还是很羡慕她的！ 那就是她的腿和腹部。 腿。。。好修长，而且皮肤也很柔滑。 腹部。。。好平坦喔！！！！！！！！ 这些正是我所梦寐以求的。。。。。。。。。 想到现在的我，我真是惭愧。 虽然我已经脱离之前似乎看起来营养不良瘦巴巴的样子，但是却在腹部和大腿上多长了一些小肉肉。 烦啊！！！！！ 我又得知如果要做treatment价钱又很昂贵。 怎么做女人那么不简单啊？？？？？？？？ 你知道的，样貌尤其对我来说，是非常重要的。 这就是外在美。 其实，我只想给大家看到我最美的一面。 所以啊。。。你们觉得美容专业是否更适合我呢？？？？？？ 要不然我转行，你们觉得怎样？ -210710-1207 Saturday, July 10, 2010
im getting more and more excited about my birthday plan as things seem to puzzle up bit by bit.i think as of now, the chalet location is more or less decided as my colleagues decided to help me with the planning so grateful to them..!!! hmmm... then... i gotta come up with a guest list. this isn't too difficult as my social circle is rather small, hence it makes my work easier. the only uphill task is whether or not i am able to invite that VIP. it's just a matter of TIME but to a workaholic like him, every second is of a monetary value. i used to "blame" him for not being able to cough up some spare time for us to meet, but now i am able to stand from his point of view and understand where he is coming from. although he is always clueless to when our next meet-up is, i dont blame him anymore. nonetheless, im still going to extend my invitation to him and hope that miracles happen :0 yesterday elaine and steph mentioned that my expression changes whenever i mention about him. now that they brought this up, then i realise it. hehe :X perhaps i've really fallen in love with him and he holds the remote to my heart. should i say love happens at the wrong time and with the wrong man? -100710-0110 |
