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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Sunday, September 30, 2007
sometimes i feel guilty.sometimes i feel uneasy. i wanna strive for perfection. i wanna be perfect in your eyes, if not as close to perfection as possible. i put in my best to do things your way, though more than often laziness is the main destruction. i'm feel that i'm not up to your expectation, boy. i feel inferior. i've always thought that i'm smart (or quite). but after i met you, im nothing but a zero. i did things that are below my level of knowledge. it's not that i'm disobeying you, but i can't break this invisible yet existing mental barrier. have i let you down? i wanna do you proud................................. i wanna listen to you saying "this is (my) sylvia." if fate permits, i wanna say "this is my GO" too. -300907-0128 Thursday, September 27, 2007
All alone I wait for youAs darkness fills this room I don't know why you ain't called Little things you used to do There no longer part of you Seems you left them all behind Well I can't believe what I'm going through This thing it, just ain't right Your selfish ways, how you carry on Somethings you just can't hide (If you want me to go) Then Say It (Want me to stay) Then show it (Don't be afraid) Oh don't break this heart of mine Now's the time, If I'm right then we've come to the end of the line So Say It (Want me to stay) Then show it (Don't be afraid) Oh don't break this heart of mine Now's the time, If I'm right then we've come to the end of the line Ooh OohOh Yeah Seems like I can't do you right All I do or say is wrong All the smallest thing critisised I deserve some damn respect Nothing more and nothing less Don't pretend everythings fine Don't hold it back if it's in your heart Stand up and be a man Can't read your mind So I just say aloud I'm trying to understand (If you want me to go) Then Say It (Want me to stay) Then show it (Don't be afraid) Oh don't break this heart of mine Now's the time, If I'm right then we've come to the end of the line So Say It (Want me to stay) Then show it (Don't be afraid) Oh don't break this heart of mine Now's the time, If I'm right then we've come to the end of the line Even though you've been doing me wrong I still care Do you think that by treating me cruel that somehow I'll disappear? Baby I love you too much just to walk away Don't make me hate you Baby you've got to be Straight Wednesday, September 26, 2007
just finished bathing and hairdrying and everything.tired day and my feet and lower back hurt because of the damn heels. it was the cosmetic roadshow and i did the catwalk. sometimes(seriously speaking), i dislike people calling me cute. don't know why but i don't really have that kind of vibe for this word. the stubborn mindset just attach "cute" to "girl", "baby", "childish" and "immature". yet over and over again, people keep calling me that which made me rather irritated. well, to them it may be a praise but to me, it's an unpleasant remark. it saddened me when he.......we just didn't talk too much tonight. i feel that things ain't right. why must they push me to someone whom i don't like? i don't like such teasing!!!!!!! it gets so frustrated when the other person who was being teased isn't the one i like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES I'M MAD AT Y'ALL. i almost broke into tears you know? & when the wrong person stood so close beside me during photo taking, i got to like keep a distance away from him. and i'm sad that you always had to say "message me when you reached home". what's this? what if i didn't call you back? what if something had happened to me along the way? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCOMPANY ME? [GO, sometimes i feel that we're so different in our thoughts and the way we do stuff. you just couldn't stop saying that i have not grown up. you know how it feels? my heart almost tear apart. these words.........they actually came from your mouth. it seems as if i just cannot reach out into your world and i can't fulfil all your wishes. do you really feel that you're talking to a kid?i'm standing beside you yet i suddenly felt that we're so distant?G.................................give me a chance can?) -260907-0204 Sunday, September 23, 2007
only those who did manicure and pedicure beforeor those who's often on salon visits would understand how complicated the steps in getting alluring nails could be. you really have to set aside some time just for it. butt hurts sometimes but come to think of it, it's worth it! i simply love nail art!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'n i love every session in the salon. HEAVEN. 'cos my nails got so pretty and nice-smelling. plus that leg scrub 'n massage! oh my~ life is about rewarding and pampering ourselves sometimes (especially girls >.<) 'n who would have thought that our nails need mask too? haha. yeps, other than facial mask there're also hair mask etc..................... the importance of mask...girls better have them now! today's a free day. woooohooooooo~ did hair treatment at home. used up a whitening mask. DIY manicure. 'n i gonna have a new look! shall keep you guys updated! to me, i'm very particular in changing image every now and then, just like the seasonal changes. they come and go........................................................ fresh look equals a fresh start! may i get what i wish for.. haha. gambatte!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nights! 'n oh ya..a new phone! -230907-0124
so i was right
and i guessed it just as much, that the wrong person likes me. misunderstood. hay-wired. reality spun the other way round. p.s. when is the right time for the right person to know my right intention? -230907-0104 Monday, September 17, 2007
catch "Snow Queen" if you can 'coz it's really a nice nice show. a must watch, trust me:) & i found myself a new idol who tops my chart of hunks. i think this guy has the best facial features out of the guys i've seen so far. PERFECT! introducing you..the lead actor in "Snow Queen"............*drumroll* HYUN BIN! .jpg)      this is what i called "young but matured".
yup..here's my birthday treat from dearest suat hoon at Q****** Hotel.
food's definitely mouth-watering and sumptuous but the people there weren't the least pleasant, especially the cheena waitress who displayed a foul attitude at us. i mean, if she's unhappy with us, she could always gossip behind our back or something and should not have directly showed her attitude at us. i didn't see her name tag if not she will be in deep trouble. anyway, a complaint letter is still inevitable. what's service to you? service encompass hospitality and everything altogether. a hotel should provide the customers with warm hospitality, a feeling of staying in a 2nd home in equivalence whereby other than home, there's still somewhere out there similar to the place we're always familiar with. that's why our country emphasizes alot on tourism and management. yet this waitress couldn't obey this simple principle, what a disappointment. fortunately we're locals. what if we're foreigners? it's gonna play a big impact yo0u know? i feel that a complain is necessary to improve the QUALITY of the service. anyway..here's a snapshot of the vast array of food there :) it was the best vegetarian meal i've ever tasted. there's sushi too!     then some pics of the hotel and myself (in cabbie)..hehe      Friday, September 14, 2007
when was the last time you went to A&E, be it to visit or be a patient yourself?hmmm..the last time i've been there was like 5 years back when i had a hordeolum on my left eye and was admitted straight to hospital. since then, i had never been to this place anymore and neither do i wish to. speaking about that, today i re-visited this old place again. as you might have guessed, obviously it wasn't something good and once you entered the so-called grand entrance, your heart begins to sink like the Titanic. everyone seems to be frowning and on tenterhooks, not knowing whether or not the news they're getting next would be favourable to their ears. outside the rooms, we're left to spend the gruelling hours worrying and stuff like that. what's worse, the patients were as if being sent to a dumping ground whereby there were MANY people in a stuffy small room. heart-wrenching, nerve-wrecking, who's next and what's next? we can only carry a big question mark in our hearts while plain waiting. ok.. i talked to this male nurse. quite handsome though..........haha.. oh ya..recently i adopted a new hobby. you would never guess the right answer. haha it is playing taki's cupid game. the testimonial from his friend. kekez..let's practise shooting manz! indonesia's earthquake was terrible, even to the extent of passing tremors to its neighbouring countries. today's tremors hit many hot spots in s'pore and one of the areas that shocked me while i was watching the news was his residence area! i suddenly thought of him and wondered whether everyone at home was safe and sound. he called me and i heaved a sigh of relief knowing that his place wasn't the least affected. god bless......................................... life's short so please cherish our body, our health that god has created in mankind. perhaps y'all gotta experience the process, then you can truly understand the meaning of the above statement. -140907-0108 Wednesday, September 12, 2007
alrighty.this is supposed to be a light-hearted entry. indeed there will be some funny stuff but i can't confirm if you'll share the same thought as me............................ yesterday was really filled with surprises, which got me into a state of shock momentarily. i received sms-es and testimonials and stuff. some sms-es from SOME people really caught me unexpected. who would have imagined that these people who seemingly disappeared from the surface of the universe would suddenly re-surfaced again? these people include my sec school classmates, ex co-workers and even patrick! oh my god! i've been searching for this person for quite some time and now he finally showed up! he's got me crying my heart out when he chose to leave. can you understand my feeling yesterday when i received his sms? fuck. all those "dear" and "muacks" hello.....please..i say please.....please don't fool around with my feelings again. I'M NOT INTO YOU ANYMORE! that's the bad point about him. i promised GO that i will look at the good side of people instead. so yea..i really appreciate those birthday wishes. it's like i'm still remembered after such a long time of losing contact with them. the feeling is shiok right? haha. anyway, thanks my firends! even a simple wish made my day! :) and some people are really a joke themselves. i mean..sometimes..when i was dropping a hint to an intended person, the message got across to the wrong person. the right person didn't get the message but the wrong person heard it instead. it's not that i'm irritated but this wrong person acted as if he's my bf that kind, you know? all those messages and sometimes i actually felt bad for not replying back. 'coz i'm just not interested in him..my dear. some things just ain't right............................................................... i knew that those reasons he gave for sending me back home were plain excuses but it's just that i didn't expose them. please........please...i can go home by myself. or, i would say that i can go home with someone else...only GO. hais..headache! last night; an interesting dream. i dreamt of taki! i dreamt that i attended his pick-a-brush workshop and he was there and ya................. *kekekekekez* sweet dream, really. and this morning i received a call from my colleague, asking me to be the model for an oncoming cosmetic showcase. must catwalk again liao.. wheeeeee~ my love:) but it would be so damn nice if i can be taki's model for his workshop instead. hehehehehe..FAT HOPE! -120907-1419 Tuesday, September 11, 2007
i think something's wrong with blogger.how come the fonts are so damn big? eeeyer~~~ ANYWAY.. happy birthday to me!!!!!!!! was reflecting how my life had been different this year from the past and discovered that some things are not the same. how shall i put it? hmmm.. i've had a good rollercoaster-like life experience when it comes to facing rejection and receiving the greatest achievement in my entire life. i've fallen hard from obstacles, fortunately still managed to get up by myself. i've been on stage, savouring every moment of being in the limelight whereby 600 over cameras flashed in front of me. i've done my first catwalk, feeling as if i'm a model myself. i've taken part in a beauty pageant and did photoshoot which i never thought would have happened to me. i've delivered the first speech which was featured in a hall of 2000 audience. i've met a guy who attracted me to his charisma instantly and he becomes a permanent resident in sylvia's mind. every glamour, every honour all came with a little luck but a whole lot came from hardwork. & i was lucky to meet a very special person who brought me to a place of opportunity-Elken. for the fact that the company recognises my effort and shaped me into who i am today, i feel that life is becoming more and more enriching in every single way. i wish........ very importantly, that everyone has good health and happiness. and may i find my happiness someday. (GO..i'm still not giving you up) hehes..here's my lil' prezzie. love it to the core.  -110907-0211 Wednesday, September 05, 2007
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala~~~sing that with me one more time! lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala~~~ yes! taki has added me in friendster! check out his profile and pics and catch a glimpse of his normal lifestyle. this guy loves fishing! this is purely admiring. i'm still stuck on GO. :) -050907-1550 Saturday, September 01, 2007
kekeke..i'm still smiling from head to toe after the previous post.aftermath of taki..... never mind.. hmm..a nice and wonderful saturday morning. how ya feelin'? met GO at his place and he brought a packet of chicken noodles from his home and gave it to me. AWWWWW~so nice of him.. this settled my lunch! went to his working place in his car.....just an excuse to spend longer time with him..hehe.. when i reached home, i couldn't bear to eat the noodles, just like how i couldn't bear to eat the apple previously which ended up rotting in the refrigerator. so hence, i took pics of the noodles!!!!! *feeling proud* enjoy a sightful lunch with me ya?  it started from this..  yumyums~~~~~~  amazed by it TOO MUCH.  striking a pose with the noodles  & another one. i name it as "sylvia and mee"..haha  must show you how much i enjoyed d food.  focusing..  just another shot lah..  tender chicken!  left the untouched chilli and chicken bones (i remember about the bones ok?)  topped up with a cup of cold Roselle. oh my.....HEAVEN!  satisfied with a full full tummy.  yet, unhappy that all's gone so fast!!!!!!!!
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as promised, here's taki chegne and me!!!
feels so honored to stand beside him..hehe.. thomas was right. HE'S MY IDOL!!!!! gonna take lots and lots of pics of him this comin' october.. =p die..sylvia is on high!!!! *kekez* i love sepia photos..it adds a lil' tinge of romance and reminscence in the air~(don't ya agree?)   |
