看完了《拜托小姐》后，我对这部戏的感触很深。
虽然今晚是大结局，它让我有无数次的感动，但是这部戏的每一集都让我有同样的感觉。
今晚我是一个爱哭鬼。。哈哈。。。。
不知怎么的，我对每一个小细节都非常留意，也因此很投入剧中想要表达感情的细腻度。
看到‘小姐’和‘徐管家’拍拖和分手的时刻，是最催泪的。
他们真心投入这段感情的时候，真的沟起了我许多的回忆。
那一幕牵着手开开心心的在逛街，就像是我们曾经度过的点点滴滴。
同样的，残酷的现实就是要让美好的时光消逝离去。
况且，两人就算心里还是很爱着彼此，还是得分手。
真是造化弄人啊！

还记得在上个星期，我妈陪我一起看这部戏。
那时的情节是叙述了‘小姐’遭到她爷爷的反对，不允许她和‘徐管家’交往。
不过‘小姐’可以为了‘徐管家’放弃所有的一切。
我妈这时对我说：“这个女孩子真的很爱这个男的。”

其实我也一样。
我可以不顾一切放弃我所有的去追求我要的幸福。
即使是一个比我大很多岁的他，我也能确定我对他的感觉。
我很想他，非常非常想念他。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
这种隔离两地的滋味很不好受。
好怀念我们扮演情侣的那段时光。。。。。
虽然彼此心里都清楚是假的，但是至少我们是真真正正的快乐过。
haiz.............................................

-290810-0120

sometimes, i am dangerous.

if a human's mind can be configured somewhat like a computer system to act and think in a standard manner, will we be happier like this?

im just afraid that someday i might turn to devil's side and hate everyone and everything i see.
in fact right now im already experiencing some of these evil symptoms like whenever i see my classmates gather together for an outing, be it in actual situation or in facebook, im filled with hatred.
H*****, especially.
in addition, i also dislike people who study alot.
i deem these people as having no life.
honestly speaking, if i spout these nonsense elsewhere, im inflicting conflicts upon myself.
but i heckcare, even a good girl has the right to be evil sometimes (in thoughts).
you see... signs of hatred begin to swamp over the once angelic mind.
im no longer the good girl anymore.
if given a chance, i want to rebel.
i mean, not in smoking/taking drugs or committing crimes.
i want to have my own freedom.
my current goddamn life is too annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

who knows one day, for god's sake, my heart shall be terminally hardened like a steel...............

ok.
now it's past midnight.
it is thursday.
friday, saturday.
that means 2 more days.
1 more day to his reply.
how now brown cow?
i dont want to reduce to the state whereby i hate you too...
i truly love you, boy.
if things are not looking good this time,
i promise i wont cry.

-260810-0035

i had a nightmare this morning which had nothing to do with the supernatural and after i woke up, i felt really uneasy.
the feeling was as if tears were already bursting somewhere in my heart.

i dreamt of my family and notti.
ok please dont laugh at my dream ok?
sometimes what happened in a dream is really absurd and has broken links.

so one day, notti came to sg and he was finding a place to stay and hence i brought him home.
our relationship then was better than what we are now but still not as a couple yet.
he came to ah ma's house where all my relatives were present but everyone doesn't seem to like him and seeing us very close to each other pricks like a thorn in their eyes.
they snide remarks at him, of course, as they objected to our relationship.
in the end, notti left me.
i gave chase but was obviously too late.
he had hastily left in a cab.
just before my brain had sufficient time to react, my body was already springing forward to chase him.
and so, i was running running running after a cab.......without taking anything from home like my hp and wallet.
at that instant, i just knew that i must catch up with him no matter what.
i dont want him to leave.

is this a bad omen?
why didn't my family like him as much as i do?
im really scared..............................:(

-200810-1346

my pocket is burning a bigger and bigger hole each day..........
in fact it is true that i've been spending money this week, hence i have this feeling that money has been flowing out of my pocket like running water.
bought clothes from g market, lollyrouge and the most recent was Chanel's newly launched Chance fragrance.
among these, i absolutely have no regrets buying the perfume though being an EDT and not the EDP that i will usually buy.
nonetheless, im so damn addicted to the fragrance that i thought im as if falling into a spell.
for ladies out there, this is truly one good fragrance that you should wear.

if you think that should be all, then you're wrong.
thats not THE END.
looking through my to-do list, i still have many wants yet fulfilled.
im so greedy right? heheehehehehehe...too bad...
i feel like coloring my hair roots, thats number 1.
2-to do hair treatment coz my hair's getting into a frenzy
and 3-to buy lingerie.

these 3 desirable monsters will surely cost a bomb of around 300 bucks.
no money no money no money no money no money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dont forget there's catering.
argh. so dead.
hope that i can see money once i wake up from my sleep in the morning...
eeeerrrm...i mean in the afternoon.

im hungry now.
supper time.
gd nite dudes.
and oh, he's going to taipei.
how is he going to catch enough rest?

-140810-0222

lalalalalalalalalalalala~
should i say that bro just gave in to me?
muahahahahaha!!!!!!

i blamed him a couple of days ago for not wanting to eat pizza just when i wanted to, hence i dropped the idea of calling for delivery.
today, he's different.
he wanted to call for pizza delivery but the person told him that our area is not covered for delivery though im not too sure whether it is only for today or for other days.
ARRRGHHHHH....
my long awaited pizza disappeared just when it's coming my way........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shit them la.

in the end we called for mac delivery lo.
tried out their spicy nuggets..
whooosh...really spicy.
coz im not a chilli lover.
hehe.
*burps*
we're so FULLLLLLL to the max!

-090810-2258

Happy 45th Birthday Singapore!

here's a birthday wish for you:
hope that you can protect us from natural disasters i.e flood................it's so damn bad.

daddy and aunt bought a tee for me, from fox.
it shows tinkerbell in front and the background was painted like our national flag.
who's creative idea was that?
there's absolutely no link between tinkerbell and singapore.
practically meaningless -.-

so that tee has been laying in my wardrobe for a week since it was bought.
i wanted to compromise initially but the size is not right as it was a tad too tight for me..........
and i thought of giving it away but it doesnt seem so nice.
tsk...
shall leave it to cold imprisonment for the time being then.

it's pretty weird dude.
when i was a kid, i thought that the adults' taste was not too bad for at least there were some similarities.
as i grow older, these similarities stretched further and further til i thought i'd rather buy things for myself than to let them do the favour.

daddy kept asking me to wear the tee and when i dont, he blamed me.
dont get it.
i will not force myself to put on something i dont like.
but at least i spare a thought for his feelings.
i did not tell him i do not like it.
at the first place, no one asked him to buy it...!!!!!
and if he insists on it, i'd rather prefer a plain tinkerbell tee.
at the very least the cartoon and background do not clash.

-090810-1415

this shouldnt be new to you...........

-040810-1417

oh my.......this is 方炯镔 for you....

before this starstruck competition, i only know of this person for his song 坏人, which is what i normally choose to sing in kbox.

but as what the judges in the competition commented about him, there was one thing which i certainly agree of, that is although he looks like the ordinary guy-next-door, he has an extraordinary voice that gained him the high score.

i dont know what to say.

i heard the original version by eason chan before and since then this becomes one of my favourite songs from him. no doubt that the melody soothes my ears, it is not an easy song to sing, lest mentioning about singing it live.

nevertheless, the song suits abin to a T. if someone can sing a song that makes my jaws drop wide open and my heartbeat follows the rhythm, then i should say that this singer is truly worth my admiration.

well, i dont know if you guys understand cantonese, but for a fact i definitely dont unless it is accompanied with lyrics.

anyway, im so proud that our neighbouring country produces music talents like abin and rynn, who not only sing but also have a flair in composing.

-040810-1323

HATES!
-LIZARDS
-players
-unreasonable toots
-almond
-going for morning class
-being treated as transparent

LOVES <3
-baking
-cosmetics
-boozing (w/o getting a heavy head!)
-people who dote on me
-acts of service

Not looking anymore other than a stupid notti.

hey, if you know me well enough, i bet you'd LOVE ME!