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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
FINALLYFINALLYFINALLYyou should have seen me jumping and giggling and swaying last night. don't think that anatomy overload had driven me crazy. though im stressed, i still have not gone over to that extent.hah. the happy thing is that i can meet my dear soon!!!!!!alas. when im half-dead last night, his words pulled me through just like a miracle. like what people say: light at the end of the tunnel. *haha..that's exaggerated* anyway, im on clouds nine!!ive waited for this day like eons ago.flashbacks of our wonderful memories are the ones that put me to sleep every night.it's so worth reminiscing... ilu dear. -310107-1328 Tuesday, January 30, 2007
when can i ever see you again?this is my choice and now i gotta face the consequence. perhaps now i finally know how to appreciate you more. -300107-1935
What Kind of Seducer Are You?
Monday, January 29, 2007
you're my salvation who pulled me out of the pit, finally.but now, i need patience? -290107-1330
it's all because you live in my heart, that's why i miss you dearly.
weekend without you is boring, that's why i yearn to see you on weekdays. i love you, that's why i want to be with you. i'm truly in love with you, that's why i blog. -290107-0107 Saturday, January 27, 2007
SINGAPORE WON!woohoo~glory for our country! Frankly speaking, it was a rather boring game until I had to switch to other channels now and then. It was a miracle when Lionel Lewis saved the last penalty and he became a hero overnight. When it comes to penalty, it needs a tinge of luck to seal the victory. I would not comment much on the goalkeeper but speaking of the player who took the last penalty for M'sia, it was obvious that he underperformed because of sheer pressure. His kick would make or break the hope of victorious winning for his team but unfortunately, the hope was dashed. Well, congratulations to Singapore Lions! However, when it comes to playing football at a competitive level, they still have much more to practise on. They should have more practices and trainings particularly at Amara Hotel area, so that I can see them more often! haha. Just about a few days ago, I saw an accident. Two cars crashed into each other and the car in front was a jaguar. No joke man..the butt was badly hit. God bless the other driver who has to be mentally prepared for a possible huge sum of compensation. So, this teaches us a lesson. To those drivers out there, be cautious of which car to hit on. Never be dumb enough to hit ROYAL cars like jaguar, merc or rollsroyce. If you're hit by them, well, perhaps you're lucky because you can expect a grand sum of compensation from them (since they are rich).hahahaha..*evil*.. No lah..Im kiddin'..The bottomline is don't ever get into a car accident ya? Safety comes first. God knows that you may be in a hurry to get to a place, but do drive safely and spare a thought for other traffic users ya? Talking about road safety, I almost got into trouble again. I don't know what's running in my head recently. It seems that I think alot, but what on earth am I exactly thinking about??? Argh..it was my fault to be exact. I was rushing to work and so, I crossed the road without waiting for the green man to flash. The green man was about to flash actually. Red light on one side had flashed, but the one on the other side had not. Perhaps I could wait for a few seconds until the green man flashed, but I just took a big risk and crossed the road. A taxi was coming very near to me until the uncle had to horn at me. I quickly hastened my step and managed to be safe in one piece. Again, this teaches us a lesson: be patient. wait for the green man. Don't underestimate speed. I enjoy and cherish the moment when we walked the path together on a rainy night; when we are both squeezed together under a small umbrella. I love it when your arms are around my shoulder to ensure that I have enough shelter. I'm mesmerised by the way we kissed goodbye. Those are the sweet moments. I miss you. -270107-2345 Tuesday, January 23, 2007
I'm TRYING to have a clear mind..I did it by not relying on him today. Though I was alone, I felt better. Ok, just wanna leave a few comments about the 2 supposedly mega TV shows showing now. 7pm's Let it Shine is a horrible show. Alrite, gotta admit that in every show there's always a message to convey to the viewers, and in this show it has it's own message too. Until now, the plot is rather boring (to me). The grave mistake made was the choice of actors and actresses. I looked at all different angles and still think that Felicia Chin should not be the lead actress. She doesn't have the look of a teacher and furthermore, it disgusts me some way or another. That's my personal opinion ya? Please *don't* throw rotten eggs at me!(to those felicia's fans out there). Ratings: I would rather you guys spend your time more wisely during this time. 9pm's The Highest Peak/Point (ahh..forgot what is it called). At least the artistes look more appealing and "real" to me. As for the plot, I find it not bad! Ratings: Continue watching till the end. HAHA. -230107-2006
CNY is just around the corner. Once Januuary ends, it transits to the month of February and oh gosh, I realise that I have things yet to be done. The THINGS I refer here are none other than SHOPPIN SHOPIN and SHOPPIN! I have yet to fulfil the stuff on my to-do list.hehe. My new year clothings, bak kwa, etc......................Guess I gonna do a last minute shoppin as soon as the last exam paper ends. haha. Dear also haven't bought anything yet. Yes..we're very busy ok? Gonna shop with him one day. ^^
& also, Valentine's Day is before CNY! Cool~Yay! This year I shall have another reason to spend the occassion "fruitfully".haha. -230107-0014 Monday, January 22, 2007
"when you want to spend time with a person (without a reason), that's when you know you're in love."-220107-2335 Sunday, January 21, 2007
Every time our eyes meetThis feeling inside me Is almost more than I can take Baby when you touch me I can feel how much you love me And it just blows me away I've never been this close to anyone or anything I can hear your thoughts I can see your dreams I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you It just keeps getting better I wanna spend the rest of my life With you by my side Forever and ever Every little thing that you do Baby I'm amazed by you The smell of your skin The taste of your kiss The way you whisper in the dark Your hair all around me Baby you surround me You touch every place in my heart Oh it feels like the first time every time I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes I don't know how you do what you do I'm so in love with you It just keeps getting better I wanna spend the rest of my life With you by my side Forever and ever Every little thing that you do Baby I'm amazed by you Every little thing that you do I'm so in love with you It just keeps getting better I wanna spend the rest of my life With you by my side Forever and ever Every little thing that you do Oh, every little thing that you do Baby I'm amazed by you
This time, I'm absolutely true.
A word of thank you is not that hard to say right? A little appreciation also counts for as long as you recognize a person's effort. I really appreciate danny's appreciation. At least I believe it comes from his heart. Serious. Some things we really can't take it for granted and I'm certainly not one you can take for granted. I'm a human too yea? I do need words for comfort.
the same applies to you. even if it's not an actual one, a virtual one does ease the mind too. i understand that you're busy, me too. are we drifting apart? i seriously need time to talk to you but do you have the time for me? 1 or 2 mins of talk isn't what i want. surely we can sit down and talk right? there are just so many things i want to tell you. i wanna hug you. miss everything damnit. so what are we? who am i to you? what will your answer be if people ask? ilu. -210107-0043 Wednesday, January 17, 2007
DAMNIT. I'm left with half a life and am struggling desparately for a breath of fresh air.HELP! Why students are exposed to such high level of stress constantly? Lack of sleep is the worst of all. I'v been sleeping for like mere 5-6 hours per day and at this rate I'm going, my panda cum puffy eyes are gonna get worser and worser. Everyday when I look into the mirror, I'm so shocked to see myself. Ahhhhh~No matter how much I've touched up on my makeup, it just doesn't do the job!! SHIT.Today I met some unhappy stuff which I don't even want to mention about. Some people really suck big time. Assholes. Dumb ass. Monkey shit. Worms. Faggots. Maggots. Idiots and retards!!!!!! You all gonna get a taste of your own doing. F***. Hmm..should I work with dear? Then I can see him everyday. Isn't it great? My head hurts terribly. Ahhhh! It feels so heavy that it's gonna collapse on my body anytime. I'm hungry too.................................................Help............................................... This is really the hardcore week. So fucked up. -170107-2325 Sunday, January 14, 2007
Dear and I went to Macpherson Sec to sell books yesterday and I was charmed by the way he spoke. OHMYGOD. It's no wonder the parents were fascinated too. The luggage was heavy like crazy until it could not be zipped completely and poor dear had to carry it. We went to office in the morning to pack the books afterwhich we thought of going to Maxwell Market to mum-mum. Ahhhh, there wasn't any parking space left. In the end we went to the school without any breakfast as there was quite a huge traffic jam on the expressway and we'd rather reach the school earlier than be late. Fortunately, I had a packet of wang wang biscuits and milo while my dear only had tea and coffee on an empty stomach. Hah. He needs to wake up man~Anyway, he owes me a tin of chupa chups since he can't quit his bad habit. Haha...I 'm doing my best on my part to quit my bad habit but I committed it yesterday. Argh! So yea..I did my forfeit.There was a buffet after the talk and we have already taken our own food. Then there were some parents browsing through the books. So we stopped eating and went back to our booth. Who knows the cleaner auntie would clear up our half-eaten food! OMG. There goes my youtiao. It's dear who hadn't eaten much man~In the end we and Hock Kee went to Geylang after that to makan for lunch and it was an eye-opener for me! The food was great though.  our first movie~-140107-1307
Hmm...so many things coming my way and yes, it's nothing but a whole lot of tests and reports and exams coming up. They're making me ga-ga as you can see. But I cannot be compared to my dear who is much much more tired than me.
Tests: 2 in the coming week and 1 in the following week. Exams (in order): Ocular Anatomy, Microbiology, Physiological and Visual Optics, Ocular Physiology Reports: CD, Pathology, Microbiology Presentation: GEMS and it's something not to be glad about 'coz I will be doing the Q&A section which everyone dread. Anyway, thanks to dear who taught me how to acquire good presentation skills and I passed through RWP presentation. Phew.......& this was what kenneth said: "You looked professional and sounded professional. You have good eye contact and was confident throughout". Hehe.. Pathology lesson was damn boring. Dr Koh talked with a monotone and at such a tortoise pace, guess everyone is dozing off. I'm doing my best to keep my eyes wide open but my heart was already wandering away. My mind started to flash my dear's face. LOL. That's when the right brain is bored. Walking from CLS to School of Biz is like climbing Mt. Ermei, especially on rainy days when we have to cut through many buildings to get shelter, it's a nightmare. I have hardly walked to Sch of Biz, only when there's a need to. I thought that T1921 is a classroom when it's not. I asked around and even those business students gave me all the different answers. What a joke! In the end, it is the teachers' staffroom. The floor was damn wet and slippery and on many occasions, I almost slipped. Floods were everywhere too and imagine that I still have to wear heels...yea..it's difficult to walk. After which i went to the library alone to slack. People kept looking at me as though they have never seen anyone wearing formal before. Whatever it is the case, I felt great in that attire. FiFi told me that I looked like a lecturer. Do I? Haha. -140107-1240 Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Oh gosh, I kept dropping stuff today! First was my metallic water bottle which startled my mom when it dropped, followed by a pen. I did RGP and GE today which was rather bad. Well, no one likes hard contact lens fit at the first place, neither do I. When the lens were stuck in my eyes, the feeling was unbearable because I felt the edges whenever I rotated my gaze. It was worst than soft lens and I still had to rate the comfort out of 10. In the end I gave 5, which was like "duh. who will feel that hard lens are comfortable?". So, yea...They also did Jone's test on me using the orange fluorescein dye and tada~they never wiped all the dye away, so it resulted in me travelling home with some sort of orange eye liner outlook. Then they also used some camera equipment to take photos of my eye which looked cool. OHMYGOD. Pictures of ONH and macular blah blah blah were shown straight away. Another thing which I found gives me discomfort was the equipment that measures IOP. Idiot lah. There's a direct force of air shooting into my eyes and whenever it did that, it never failed to give me a shock. So can you imagine? I got shocks continuously. LOL That Mr Chris did retinoscopy and ophthalmoscopy on me and ya..he got real close to me during the latter, which was expected. yay. dinner with starfish tomorrow evening. how come it wasn't you who asked the question? disappointed. yes i'm dreaming. -090107-2255 Monday, January 08, 2007
FUCK lah.i dont need you to tell me what to do ok!!! what's your problem? i will study later. dont piss me any further coz im very pissed off right now! im very sleepy. -080107-2029
tired to the max!
did last minute revision last night. hah. it's my fault lah. choices have consequences. went to office in the noon and afterwhich i headed for school. the first thing patrick asked was "what happen to your eyes?".. i did not catch enough sleep my dear. tonight's another night of slow passing time. im so sleepy............................................................................... only patrick will notice my eyes, just like how i notice "HIS" eyes. does "he" appreciate it anyway? -080107-2020 Sunday, January 07, 2007
I thought that I would be the lonesome soul in the office today since it's a Sunday, but who would have expected a bunch of people to turn up too? At least this kept me going for awhile somehow.I'm listening to Tony Leung's "min zi" aka. Name now. Thanks to Jeff,ya? I never know that this act-cool guy sings and damnit, he sings well! *Clap clap*..Somehow or another as he sings the first word, the feeling is like err..he sounds like someone or maybe the other way round. Serious. I can picture that somebody's face in my head and combines it with Tony's voice. OHMYGOD! Ya, so it's as if that somebody is singing to me now. awwww... If ya'll got a chance, take a listen to the song. The lyrics, especially, ring a bell in my head. Yep, I've got that particular feeling before. Even up till now, I'm still having it.The melody was the one which captured my attention at the beginning and I couldn't stop humming the tune man! you have hardly looked at me straight in the eye. am i in your peripheral vision? no matter what, i wish to follow you. -070106-2001    I was wondering whether or not 2007 will be a year full of the unexpected. Yep, I begin to think that this thought may be coming true. Surprises either come in the form of being created by other people due to situational changes or we create them ourselves. Today i gave myself a surprise, or rather a reward for pampering myself before school reopens. Guess what? I gave myself a treat at the Nail Palace. Envious? The actual reason is because my nail broke due to sheer carelessness. That's so unlike me, right? I usually see my nails as precious babies and surely I will take care of them right? It's my bro's fault (I'm not a blamer ok?). That woman miraculously applied some gluey stuff on it and tada~my nail is back in one piece and this time in the most perfect state ever! Okok, I gotta admit that their service was commendable and barely covering up for my vulnerability to retail therapy, oh yea baby~I signed up for their package! Anyway, this was my first time patronizing a nail shop. What a joke right? Girls and ladies out there must have been to such places umpteen times! But Sylvia's only been there once. Ok~ Now, even my hands and legs smell nice! Thanks to their massage~ Even nails need conditioning like applying masks etc, exactly what our hair needs. Pink shimmery finger nails + brown toe nails. Where's my prince to kiss my hands? Hah. Guess only starfish would. -070107-0041 Friday, January 05, 2007
According to the typical Chinese superstition, when a dog howls or cries in the night, it spells bad omen. It was early in the morning at around 4.30am when a stray dog barked real loudly downstairs. I guess that many of us were disturbed and irritated by the barking and that some people might actually go to their windows and take a look. Well, I wasn't quite interested to get out of my bed to kaypoh over such stuff when my sleep hadn't been that sweet at all and ya..the dog just added to my frustration. My mom and dad woke up of course but they claimed that the dog was nowhere to be seen. Perhaps the dog was at the void deck. Anyway, the dog might have seen some things humans could not see and ya..spirits maybe? My dad said that perhaps someone had died and that the next day, there might be a funeral downstairs. However, everything is peaceful today. It just doesn't feel right. A dog will not cry for no reason just like all things happen for a reason, right? Could it be that someone is dying?I woke up in the morning with a heavy heart. A not-so-sweet sleep plus irritating barking (for no reason apparently) equal to madness! Oh before I forget, I heard a guy shouted at the dog to shut up. As if the dog understands..haha, i guess he's even madder than me. shucks.im so so so so so so in love with you.just wanna give you a super tight and won't-ever-let-go hug. but even giving you a hug now sorta needs a reason. -050107-1539
May 2007 be a great year man! 2 days into the new year and some surprises had already shocked me quite a fair bit and what's more in the future?
I went to cedar girls' school yesterday to see their BTW and when I reached home, I just laid flat on my bed. Ya know why? I've got toe cramps! Wonderful isn't it? Just like what Gary had said, life is so unpredictable. When you think that shit won't ever happen to you, it just happens. I've never thought that I would ever get toe cramps on BOTH of my legs, mind you, and lest talking about almost being a victim of a car accident. If I had moved a step forward and if not for the fact that Jeff had pulled me back, I would be lying on the road the next moment! The traffic light was faulty and I actually underestimated speed. When I recovered from my shock, though I was standing at the middle of the road, I was thinking 'Oh man! That was a close one!'. Well well well. I've always thought that I was a blessed pedestrian and accidents and stuff like that will be kept away from me. I was wrong. Have you experienced being in a car when the driver swerved just to get back at another driver for cutting his lane? Great, I was in that car! Oh monkey crap, I can feel the effect man! I was thinking if the driver's skill had been a grade lower, I guess that both cars would already have scratched each other's body. What for? Why do this just for the sake of getting back at others and flaunting the expert's way of driving? That was reckless! Gosh, that's TRIPLE shock for me in a day,ONLY. Whatever it is, some incidents like these see us through what friendship really means. Anyway, I need induction to find my symbol. I'm rather lost. at that moment, i really thought of following you even if you might endanger my life. i looked back at you, but you didn't even turn a degree clockwise to look at me. -050107-1245 Tuesday, January 02, 2007
guess what? tomorrow's my first date with starfish. wonder what the feeling's gonna be like...hope it's not a risky game though. i gonna enjoy enjoy enjoy the holiday till the very last day! 2007 marks a new beginning, a fresh start for everyone with more unexpected surprises to come in our way. lets bid farewell to the past and embrace 2007 with hope and beliefs! tomorrow is the 2nd day of 2007 and im spending with starfish. maybe it serves to pay him back for i was not able to spend the eve with him but oh well, perhaps this is the start of a new friendship... last night's the last time i cried for you. no more in the future. -020107-0118 |
