我最近在想，也许不是你配不上我，而是我配不上你。
可能我就是配不上任何人，尽管别人有多平凡。

今年的圣诞节，我和几位同事一块儿度过。
也不是去参加什么大派对，我们只是一起去了乌节路的一家日式餐厅共进晚餐。
我点了oyakodon，但我总觉得这比不上我在学校吃过的。。。
可能是我的嘴巴太刁了吧。。。因为其他人都说他们的食物不错。
尽管如此，我还是吃得很开心，因为终于在今年，也在这么特别的一天尝试了新东西。
Sake!!!!!!!!!!!! 烧酒。
它的味道很像wine，可是还好没有那种我讨厌的涩味，所以很容易入口。
如果有机会的话，真想多喝几杯嘞！
当晚我好像还喝不够，我还清醒得很。
为什么？为什么不让我痛快地醉一场？？？？？

我讨厌乌节路，尤其是那条我们当晚走过的路，因为我和他也曾经走过那里。
同样都是在圣诞期间，可是我就是少了你，少了让我扣住和牵住手的人。
merry christmas. how are you?

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i can stay nonchalant to all and other stuff,
but i just could not stop wanting to know every single bit about you.
coz all i hope is to merely take a step closer to you even though we are living in 2 different countries.
i love to see your update coz it makes me feel like im living in your world.
it's ok if you dont reply.
i knew it all these while and im already used to it,
but i dont mind leaping forward to start a conversation.
it's alright, it's ok.

i just hate myself for being so hopeless.

3 days ago, a guy staying at the opposite block just died suddenly, probably due to a cardiac arrest for that was what i heard from other neighbours.
though cliche, life is indeed fragile and unpredictable.
we are so vulnerable to changes, especially to sudden and silent ones and our lives are therefore sealed by death.
isnt it scary?
i always see this guy cooking in the kitchen whenever i looked out from my window and i could not believe that the deceased is him!
i repeatedly asked my parents whether they made a mistake coz i refused to accept the shocking truth.
in my heart im asking "is him? he died just like that?"

lemme ask you.
if you can forsee that today is going to be your last day on earth, what will you do?
and if you can't forsee the future, aren't you going to do something from this moment onwards?

for me, i have many things to do and many things to say especially to notti :(

-151210-1355

who is samantha????????

a friend or more than friend?

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有时候，寂寞是件很可怕的事。
刚刚在回家的路途中，当车子穿梭一道道繁忙的马路时，我的心顿时泛起一股莫名的空虚。
也许寂寞太久，坐在左手边的心灵也想要有一点关爱与呵护。
可是只有耳机里的音乐陪伴着我。
这城市突然感觉很陌生，很陌生。。。
而一切的人，事，物都仿佛掩盖我内心的呐喊。
到底谁能听到我呢？
我只需要人陪，就算是一个晚上也行。
我只需要有人轻轻地抚摸我的头发，安抚我的畏惧。
我只需要一个拥抱，驱走讨厌的寂寞。
我只需要一个人，
那个人就是notti.


两年不算太长，但也不短。
我会继续等你。。。。。。。。。。。。。

-111210-2337

HATES!
-LIZARDS
-players
-unreasonable toots
-almond
-going for morning class
-being treated as transparent

LOVES <3
-baking
-cosmetics
-boozing (w/o getting a heavy head!)
-people who dote on me
-acts of service

Not looking anymore other than a stupid notti.

hey, if you know me well enough, i bet you'd LOVE ME!