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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Saturday, August 30, 2008
i've never felt so scared before...this time the fear is coming at a full blast. perhaps i shouldn't have searched the net, i almost fainted from shock. nothing must happen to me, god. if what's written is true, why me? and your answer to our pact is 'dunno". this was such a disappointment. my heart sank. there goes my long awaited hope. thought i can finally believe that miracles exist, but you trashed my hope. at least you've saved my very least pride left. thank god you didn't give me any other reason, "dunno" is more comforting in any shit situation. think i got your message now... i've been living in a self-deceiving dream. -300808-0127 Thursday, August 28, 2008
i thought the answer would be either red or black but god knows that i still preserve a girlish image. yes, i love confident guys <3>
 *this fish's at fault* almost died from over-production of brain juice over data analysis using microsoft excel. those figures and words were making my head spin and twist and turn. but as compared to my other 2 group mates, i should be better off than them. hahaha jiayou girls! spent late night and the entire day today to complete this whole shitty data analysis. thought it was peanuts, but who knows that it was more capable than this! feeling fortunate that class95fm accompanied me when i was working on the comp. vernetta shared with us on how to pronounce the word "salmon". i should be guilty of pronouncing the word wrongly all these while, to think that i've been embarassing myself in public...hahahahaa.... i guess not only me, i've heard mispronunciations outside too... when all the words camouflaged together, mine won't stand out too much, i hope. so guys, better pick this up before you order such food outside in the future....hahaha. i could finally sleep soundly last night!!! thanks to the heavy workload that made me work through the night and thus enabling me to fall into a sleep more easily. i'm looking for hard rock songs, any intro? mommy bought cheescake home today. hmm..but honestly speaking, this is not the best that i've eaten. i love secret recipe's. anyway, in my neighbourhood, that should already be considered as the best. when you've tasted the finest food, you'd rather go hungry than to compromise. hahhahaa...that makes some sense? -280808-0026
Monday, August 25, 2008
ARGH!BOILING, BOILING, BOILING TO BEYOND THE BOILING POINT! i get sick of staying at home. you don't understand me at all, that's why we can't communicate. you just simply enforce your stupid self-centered opinions on me and expect me to do things your way. NO WAY! bullshit!!!! i don't wanna work just for the sake of working, mind you. you don't understand that all i'm looking for is interest and passion which i feel is more meaningful. wake up your silly idea lah. I DON'T ENJOY DOING STUFF WHICH I DEEM BORING AND DRY. WHO DOES? weekdays, no one's free to go out. wanna meet him, but now even such freedom must be considered before putting things into action 'coz i have no grounds to meet him every now and then. was quite disappointed just now actually. his unintentional unpleasant words hurt me. it made me think that perhaps i was too silly. love is no offence. thought i can throw him a lil surprise this wednesday. but he said "why you wanna come?" i just swallowed my words back. -250808-2330( angry to the point of getting a heart attack.) Saturday, August 23, 2008
 i miss notti. to me, it seems like we hadn't been talking for ages... ever since that fateful day when my relationship ended. he's either offline or online but never talk. i wanna ask him whether he still remember our pact. don't know him lah. don't know whether he said it in a moment of fun or just to cheer me up only. just saw his newly open company website...can see he's been working real hard behind the scenes these while. and 1 word to describe it: IMPRESSIVE!!!!!!! it's so much professional and creative in terms of layout as compared to the previous one. well done boy! i see hope, a r a i n b o w, a ray of light! thanks lilin! this is the best news ever this holiday! hope my parents allow me to go on a trip......... pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........i've been so looking forward to this day, if it ever come true. then i can see notti as well....... daddy, let this be my bday prezzie please. i won't ask for more. -230808-0057 (feeling delightful and bright!)
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
 this is uploaded prior to suat hoon's comment. don't you think this guy looks like gary lee? he is yang wei. :D i don't know how to describe him....but the way he stood proud for his country while receiving his gold medal resembles gary's confidence and charisma. hahahaha... tada~ is like gary's in sports attire. anyway...yang wei did our chinese proud! well-done! -200808-2348  uhhhhhh... had diarrhea yesterday. though the pain has stopped, my tummy still feels kinda weird and bloated. but i die-die must attend the seminar tomorrow, as promised. i'm starting to countdown for my bday! around 3 weeks more. am i expecting a surprise? hehe. gotta sleep early tonight. so shan't hog the comp for long. nites people! -200808-2340 (grace said that i look like a llama. don't know in what way also. lol. wonder how's she....)
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
oh smiles...........sylvia just smileee......i can't smile. nothing for me to smile. :( -180808-2358 Monday, August 18, 2008
many pieces of good news! first up. there's nothing wrong with my eyes! thought the foreign body sensation could probably be due to recurrent hordeolum. thank god! there's just alot of follicles and papillae :) secondly. i'm feeling soooooo damn excited about the making of our last class tee for the last poly term. it's gonna be a dri-fit!!!!!!!! i love the idea of making a dri-fit with our name and class index no. on 'cause to me, it looks like our own personalised jersey. and my name is "SYL." cool right? this is the nick that i always use and love the most!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thirdly. earned 20 bucks for doing ms ling's study. fourthly. finally bought the long heard-about BB cream. though i would like to try the one from Missha, thefaceshop's can do the work just fine. it really proves to me that it's a wonder cream. not only does it contain moisturising agent, but it could also tighten pores and improves the appearance and condition of our skin. the deciding factor of its quality is the amount of coverage it can produce. i mean, oh heavens, it does not pale in comparison with my previous cream-to-powder.  as my blusher is running out too, i tried the one from thefaceshop. it shines, thus accentuating shimmery look on the cheeks. i'm wondering, what's wrong with me? how come i didn't try out their products in the past? fifthly. you gotta try the evian brumisateur! this multi-function mineral water can refresh and hydrate your skin after prolonged stay in air-conditioned working environment. it can also make your make-up stay longer throughout the day.  sixthly. the new J&J's body lotion smells so damn nice and indeed it keeps our skin moisturised for a very long time, though i didn't use a stopwatch to time exactly how long it lasts to compare with what it claims to be.  to a girl, it will never be too much to splurge on body and skincare 'cause we all want to look and feel good. agree huh? to suat hoon: girl, hope you don't take the blow too hard. i really don't know how to console you. when it comes to death, no one will feel good and i can't ask you to cheer up either 'cause i don't think it will be possible. but anyway, your granny had already come to the end of her life cycle whereby she'll be meeting your daddy in the heavens perhaps. that's the only comforting thing i can tell you:) -180808-1550 Sunday, August 17, 2008
this holiday's goal: NO MORE SUPPER!yes. i can't afford to eat at night. i've worked out the best way to combat those hunger pangs, which is going to sleep. i'm gonna burn those fats with simple exercises. crunches, pushups, climb more stairs and jogging. dreaded jogging -.- but for the sake of looking good, ahhhhhh~JUST DO IT! and i shouldn't feed bii at night. though virtual, those fluff food really look tasty! visual temptation.......!!! whatever. i really wanted to have a good rest and relaxation this holiday. initially thought of going on a short trip to m'sia, and KL perhaps to meet notti. but this plan is not feasible. no one's going with me............................... i don't feel secure leaving the country alone.. unless he picked me up from here, then maybe yes! hahahahahaa... i wanna have a smashing fun time!!! take me on a trip, for a drink, to the beach, for a shopping spree, for a short stay in hotel........... basically ANYTHING! it's time to recover from mental stress, man! -170808-0110 (don't wanna dream of notti again. they're nightmares that i don't wish to happen) Thursday, August 14, 2008
we understand that we are not alone in this universe; we live with many other people under this big umbrella.likewise, when there's a human crowd, there's bound to be issues of conflict surfacing at this moment. time gives me sharper observation skills to see through the hidden colors of a person. too bad, we still have to live with these people regardless how much we dislike them. this is so true of a work environment. some people love to pull strings with the bosses in order to climb the corporate ladder ahead of the rest. biasness, senseless, ridiculous................you gotta know who's more capable than U in this field of knowledge. GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT! WHY SHOULD WE ALWAYS "FOLLOW YOUR WAY"? i'm beginning to feel fatigue getting control of me. i think that's because i'm bored, thus i've got nothing to do but to laze around on my bed. it's not officially holidays yet. but i'm struggling with finding stuff to do. any ideas? going to get BB cream from Missha tomorrow! -140808-2342 (don't you think yang wei of china gymnastics looks like gary lee? hahaha) Tuesday, August 12, 2008
i wasn't stoning.it was just an excuse for not wanting you to see through my feelings. what ran in my mind was disappointment and at the same time reminiscing the times we spent together like tonight, where you're just sitting right here beside me. you changed my contact name. but "dear" has never changed all the while even after we broke. the reason why i kept the name is because i'm begging for the slightest hope that one day hopefully things could change. i wish for hope. but not too much either 'cause i fear. fear for that simple phone call that says "lets be friends" i know that i'm going to be sick this holiday. started having symptoms of cold since yesterday. i told you i was very cold. yes, i was shivering in the bus, beside you. thought you could actually firmly hold my hands to keep them warm. or perhaps a sweet embrace will be better. from then on, i figure out what's on your mind. we are just friends. but, i don't want just that. -120808-2311 Monday, August 11, 2008
laugh laugh smile smile crazy crazy...........ALL FAKE! i'm utterly disappointed. yes i have high expectations of myself. actually the first thing i wanna tell you was how well i think that thing went. but my tone sunk down.. i thought of asking you out for a celebration. at that moment, i found nothin' to talk about. how i wish i could hang up the phone immediately. -110808-2306 (bad day) Friday, August 08, 2008
 i say...sweets are love! some say sweets are weapons, to trick lil kids! i'm willing to be fooled by you. nice yoghurt mentos! -080808-2344
this short nap is definitely worth having!
dreamt that i joined PAB workshop. and my boss was......................... then there's also derrick. but in the end i was fired by ...........'cause i was fooling at work and not being serious. ahhhhhhh~~so sad right? it wasn't so easy to get into the company but i cause a destruction of the whole thing. however i was happy about the dream. 'cause.....'cause.......dont know why either. do i miss him so much? WHY DO I ALWAYS DREAM OF HIM AR? if now there's a choice to choose from; if now there's a diploma in makeup and styling; if the choice is second to optom; i will not hesitate to choose this path. it's one of my dreams to become a makeup artist or some image consultant:) if only it is still PAB workshop; if there's another branch in sg. if...if...if... :) -080808-2340 (happy olympics day!) Wednesday, August 06, 2008
i'm back from work!not tired at all!!!!!!!!hahahaha...had a fun time trying frames in the shop, but the best i could find is D&G series... which costs like $858 wowwwwww...*fainted* differing for yesterday, i had a super filling meal tonight. ate 2 slices of Secret Recipe's cheesecake at 6+pm and fish soup at 7+pm... now seems like i'm hungry again...... hahahaha & you know what? i'm craving for auntie annie's soft pretzel. i could never forget the first time when i ate it. it tasted like heaven!  -060808-2305
today i'm on diet.
hahahahaha..not deliberately though... had 2 slices of bread with tuna spread for breakfast. then, a bowl of oats and a 面煎粿 for lunch. thats all....... but it's filling anyway, so ya...healthy diet for you (me)! i don't wanna pet the fluff for a selfish reason. argh, but in the end i still pet it :) -060808-0012 Sunday, August 03, 2008
Virgo's prediction today:Having a messy car or bedroom sure isn't the end of the world, but isn't it nice to see order and cleanliness around you? Always being surrounded by clutter or a mess might not consciously bother you, but you will think more clearly if you have less disorganization to distract you. Spend a little time cleaning up your world. Tidy up here and there. You don't have to scrub and scour every surface -- just create more open spaces and clean visuals. You'll feel a lot more relaxed when you do. wow...didn't know that i actually have the power to anticipate what's written for today's horoscope! today i feel like cleaning and tidying up my room and who knows it coincides with the horoscope so effectively.......... ya indeed i felt more cheerful after seeing a cleaner and more organised bedroom... went with daddy to tiong for lunching and shopping. bought some tops for clinic as well...hees. and 'cause i hardly shop at the basement level, i was shocked to see a totally new layout! my jollibean was gone and now it became mr bean, which was just opposite shih lin. but mr bean doesn't have my pearl soya drink :( well.. i also saw new stalls at basement selling rice dumplings and cream puff. shall check 'em out someday! i had also bought a book from popular which was written by adam and gary. shall look for them for autographs! haha. hmmm..maybe bringing suat hoon along too! finally done up my intro ppt for tomorrow. hopefully, the coming week will be more relaxing... which is quite true in some sense........ 'cause the only thing coming up next is gems online quiz. taking a break and heaving a sigh of relief. finally, time to recuperate from stress and low-quality sleep... -030808-1846 Saturday, August 02, 2008
night comes..and here's a lil' thing i wish to blog about.checked my email and at the same time read through some of the older ones. stumbled upon notti's blog. he had not been updating his blog but never mind, i just read it since i have the time. perhaps now i've got the slightest understanding of his situation. and also perhaps since i'm so much younger, hence i'm not able to fully comprehend all his past. everyone has their own story behind closed doors. some kept it in the deepest valley of their heart, hoping that no one and nothing will reveal the scar someday. some tried to, but is still constantly traumatised and reminded of it. too bad, no one is born a machine that can automatically delete what's not pleasant memory. does suppression always help? did you know that you can never move on if you don't attempt to cast the burden away? how to accept someone new if you can't forget your ex? didn't know that you had so many thoughts and are still dwelling about your past. didn't know that you had actually sunk so deep in and are still stuck there. the first impression you gave me is that you are someone who seems to be happy-go-lucky, being playful and notti, that's why i call you by this name. but who knows the real you? behind closed doors when no one's around, is the real you being sad? like what you always say, "stay steady and calm" i will always remember your words, every single one of them. take care, my friend! hope you find the true meaning in life! -030808-0014 ( to think that last year i was actually affected by your posts...hmmm)  it's kinda pathetic to stay at home during weekends........right?
actually thought of finding someone to accompany me to town. gary's having a book talk today at BORDERS, so wanna go there to root support for him and at the same time to reminisce those times in CGS listening to his talk cum workshop. suat hoon is giving tuition on saturdays and princess is having clinic......... ahhhh....n'vrmind...hence i stayed at home to do household chores. wah......seems so guai right? hahaha..had always been like that:) laundry+tv+comp+ppt prep tonight. that's my saturday! pract exam is finally over!!!!!!!!!!! i raised my hands high up into the sky and shouted YAY after it ended. mr ong laughed at me. haha -020808-1843 |
