the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
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 Hah..I dug out this pic!! suddenly there's this red crazein me..Read about Cleo's 50 Bachelors just now when the advertisement shockingly popped out after I cleared my emails. I was like "WOW"..The guys really have what it takes to be featured in this competition. Looks, bod, charm, you name it, they have it! I think Joe Leong has the best sincerest smile but I think I will vote for Darren Sng. It's kinda weird. How come they are still bachelors when they have everything girls dream for? Hmm..
Seriously lah. Those bachelors have the abs and every single one of them is all buffed up. They really look like models..*whistles*
NONE can be compared to my dear though. In syl's heart, pat is still the best! If he's still available, would have asked him to take part but the thing is..he's taken! haha..
I was standing by my kitchen's window this early afternoon. The day seems to be quiet and the momentary nostalgic afternoon air suddenly reminded me of the time when I was still a primary school kid and still needed my aunt to fetch me home from school. The view across was a narrow pat which was exactly where we would walk along every afternoon. I'm truly touched and grateful for what she had done for me..-270207-2346
The night, so calm and serene, is the best time to pen our thoughts isn't it? Well, it's the time of the day I love most. With class95 love songs playing in the background, what can be a better way to destress?I received a few comments these few days. Leroy and Woei Tang said I've changed after CNY, looking prettier than before. Even yesterday Nana said that I looked different. Hmm..what could be the reason? When asked, they can't even pin-point the root of cause. They said that now I have a different kind of "wei dao". Haha..Could it be maturity or could it be that I'm in love? Love makes a whole lot of difference yea! Sweet O Sweet~Whatever it is, I think that's the growing phase in life, the transition from a lil' girl to a young woman. That probably fits more into the picture.Thinking back, my looks in the past kept changing.short black hair+specs>no specs>shoulder length hair>long hair>brown hair>gold hair>red hair>makeup+manicure+pedicureHaha. That's the change from a nerdy looking geek to a sweet young woman. But there's one single thing which has never changed over the years, which is READING! It will never ever be my past time. BOO.-270207-0003
BAD SUNDAY MORNING. Was rather disappointed over something. & ya, I hate "-.-" symbol. So people out there, STOP SHOWING ME THIS FACE! Wait until the day comes when I can finally accept this irritating face. Till then, if you persist, you gonna get it from me.Today is Jeff's birthday (25/2). Woei Tang, Lydia, Eugene and me celebrated for him at Crystal Jade Kitchen (Takashimaya). Me and Woei Tang bought a Bakerzin cake for him. I don't quite like the white chocolate but overall the design beautifully resembles a bed of roses. It's named "Desire". Woei Tang and Lydia bought a wallet for him. I guess Woei Tang is the big spender for the day. Food's on him too! Talking about food, you must not miss Crystal Jade's congee!! No joke, it is thick and filling..yummylicious! I had pig liver and kidney congee. I used to dislike pig organs because of the smell but the porridge broke this tradition. We ordered other side dishes as well.Eugene and I really have no chemistry at all. It's so difficult to start a conversation with him. Well, so be it lor.After dinner, Jeff and I went to Taka Square. Amazingly, I saw Sam and Amelia! OHMYGOD the last time I saw them was like 6 months ago. Gotta catch up really soon man! Another incredible thing that happened was when I saw Nana at Orchard MRT. We were standing side by side and we couldn't really recognise each other. We kept staring into our reflections and finally confirmed we were who we saw. Haha. Talked to her in the train and ya..I miss my working peeps.I guess I made someone angry tonight. Am I giving false impressions? Weijie called me laopo out of the blue and he got offended when I didn't called him laogong. What's wrong? His testimonials are like....anyhow giving me a status without my approval.The word "laogong" undertakes a new meaning to me now. Unless the person is really the one I love, I will not create unwanted misunderstanding. I used to call Sam that, but perhaps all's been the past when I used the word to joke around. I thought they will understand or feel the same way as me. Now then I realise that perhaps such stuff should be treated tactfully.Now, there's only pat.-260207-0007
 An unforgettable night. It's been some time I've last stepped into office and yesterday I went in to clear some work. Didnt know that there was a preview at night and thus met pat there. Had food delivery and dinner in the office. We shared a box of beehoon goreng and some tarts. Full full full..After dinner, we both went outside to sit around and talk. There was a small step whereby we sat and spent some personal time together. He took a puff while I just continued drinking my water. That's the kind of personal time I yearn for. It doesn't have to be long..even a few minutes together will be quite sufficient. After preview ended, he walked me to the bus stop and accompanied me to wait for the bus. Can the bus come later?haha...Pat still had to return to office to prepare for today's event..It's amazing how a kiss and hug can do wonders..hmm..I think almost everyone in the office knows about us. Even Danny asked me about Pat last night. Gary should know about this, I guess..Leroy, Kristy and Theresa saw us too when we're leaving office..well.. that's the power of love. It makes us wanting to freeze every second, every existing time just to keep it for the both of us. -240207-1317
Happy New Year to all!
Before CNY has even knocked on our doorsteps, I was wondering whether I have the opportunity to go to pat's house. I've been choking on this question ever since but I didn't have the courage to pop it to him. Why? Because I know that the answer will not be what I want to hear so instead of meeting a dead end, why not I just move on? Perhaps time is not ripe yet and meeting the folks is nowhere in sight.
I have bad panda eyes these few days despite for the fact that I've been sleeping like a log. This holiday is the best time to replenish all the energy I had lost by recovering all the sleeping hours, as much as possible. Quite true. I sleep and sleep until I grow lazy...Didn't accomplish much but today I decided to do something!!! Yep, I did the laundry and ironed all the clothes. Ironing is my forte ya..Creases gone gone gone!
The not-so-bad thing is that I have learnt something this holiday. Cycling made me realise that one should be forward-looking. Pluck up courage and give your future a dash forward. When we keep harping on our present state, things get more and more shaky. On the other hand, we should not be afraid to meet challenges. Though it gets a little uneasy in the beginning, who can say that it will not be smooth-sailing following on? I finally mastered the skill of making turns through knocking against the walls and bins and there were so many times the bike collapsed on me. Life without adversities will definitely not make a fruitful learning journey. Agree?
Perhaps I have changed. There is always this wild inner child in me which I have not displayed over the years or even up till now. How can I unleash it? I want to be a bad girl, can I? Of course excluding smoking etc..I wanna stay out. I wanna break my curfew. I wanna be a wild chic. I wanna be more daring. I wanna go pubbing.
-230207-0033
I name today the "bak kwa" day.I could not believe that I actually join in the activity of lame people: QUEUE. In the past, I thought that these people are plain lame and have nothing better to do than to waste the time standing under the hot sun and letting your legs hurt like nobody's business. Yet again, I was wrong. To think that I'm one of these lame people today! Ya..I better believe in what goes around comes around. Hence, perhaps some unpleasant badmouthing words should stop coming out from our mouth ya? So, I feel that we should not be stingy with our compliments. As for the horrid bad stuff, let's keep it to ourselves.I queued for approximately half an hour for the bak kwa. I think it's worth it. Though i have not tasted it, praises are rushing in from across the streets. In case you're wondering, I bought Lim Chee Guan's bak kwa, the No.1 BBQ pork in S'pore if I'm not wrong. This is better than what I had earlier expected of the queueing time which would take like 1 hour. I can't help but feel that God loves me. YAY.Oh ya..while I was waiting for a bus home, I was "blessed" with 30 mins of idling and looking at people. The wait was freaking long! I saw this old man who was rather pitiful. He was walking all by himself. Having some difficulty in walking, he walked in half steps. Yup..very slow-paced. I kept looking at him, don't even know why but just felt sorry for him. He wore a shirt and pants and trackshoes. I got this bitter feeling of..don't know what and why also.In the end, I spent like more than 60 bucks to get the bak kwa for myself and those for granny. Hope she loves it:)Hah. I pampered myself again after the last treat on Valentines Day. If no one loves me, I gotta love myself right? Yeppy, live by this principle! Did menicure and pedicure and some nailart on my fingers. Love it!Tomorrow. A race against time for last minute shopping for cosmetics.That's all folks!-170207-0044
OHMYOHMY! I admit that I love cuddles and hugs and stuff. But it never strikes me that cuddles is my superpower! Haha. Once again the rule of the thumb is: you gotta have a hot bod honey!
| The Keys to Your Heart |  You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
hmm..almost everything's quite true and similar to pat coz he took this test before. but..i don't view marriage as something that will hold me captive for life. it's not as scary as what it is made to seem.
| Your Hidden Talent |  You have the power to persuade and influence others.You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think! |
| You Are a Prophet Soul |  You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.
You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul |
| Your Birthdate: September 11 |  You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month. |
| Your Aura is Blue |  Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.The purpose of your life: showing love to other peopleFamous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, OprahCareers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor |
Saw you 3 days back. Yet it seemed as if it happened centuries ago. At times, waiting doubled with a few moments of missing, made my heart scream in pain. Where's the commitment? I've taken a step back and contributed more than you do in this relationship. You said that it's easy to maintain a relationship, but how is it going to be done when the effort's been coming from only one party? I do feel frustrated. I keep on contributing but what have I been receiving? Woei Tang said "don't bother to mind-read"..true. I moved forward even to the point of shedding my self-pride to express my feelings simply because I respect and love you. Have I touched your heart? Is it very difficult to see you, to receive your sms or your call at least to feel that you care? This is becoming more and more like a long-distance relationhip my dear..Even lovers need some time apart, i understand, but is this too over-exaggerated given the fact that we are in the same country? Time forbids and distance hence grows.Status: single.I'd rather free myself from some expectations for now.i'm serious this time.Haven't been feeling too good lately. Emotions is my vital acupoint. Too many things happened and I have never felt as tired before, though I'm exam-free. Sometimes I wanna get away from home. Pressure's been coming in all directions and shooting specifically at my soft and meek character. I'm so sick of it can? Why must my bro be the dictator? And why must I comply to his demands all the time? I don't want conflict and so I gave in. I've been giving too much and he becomes too dependent on me as a result. Why can't he do simple things? If he can't even have a firm mindset to solve the slightest and most trivial matter, I can't see how he is able to make big decisions in the future? LEARN LEARN LEARN and keep on accumulating experience. One can never get enough of learning new stuff and through adversities, we are given the opportunity to learn to fight on. You can't expect life to submit to us right? You must ask for what you want and take the initiative to talk. Things won't come to us out of the blue. GROW UP! WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND SUCH SIMPLE LOGIC?FED UP.-120207-2300
Wordless for days and when the right day came, we only exchanged words like hi and bye. I understand that you're busy so I didnt want to hold up your time and hence I left the office very quickly. When I turned back to look and say goodbye to you, how I wish time would freeze for us to be the only characters in our own world. But the real busy office life never seems to give us the opportunity, a space to breathe. Many things can happen in this period of time but I'm doing my best to shirk them away if possible. Even cube will not make my heart waver. For my stand is strong, my only belief is that there is only you in my heart and hope that I mean to you in the same fashion. Reality may keep us apart, but love keeps us near to our hearts. I didn't miss you any lesser in the passing time and through the wonderful memories, I could vividly see your image floating in my mind. I just accepted the fact that I may have to spend Valentine's without you. Well, you have your own priorities and maybe time is not yet ripe for me to become one of those. I respect your decision though deep down I lament over the failure to make you appreciate me more. It's a choice I gotta live by at the first place. Let's live heaven's joke yea?my hand for you to hold--090207-2324
MONKEY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argh! I feel terribly unwell. Thanks to FUSE, which gave me the runs. How come I'm lactose intolerant? My tummy feels super duper weird..help..I still have alot to study for Optics!So what's Valentine's day to you all? Is it called Friendship Day too? Its understandable if you spend this special day with your buds when you're still single. It's hard to explain when you spend this day with your buds rather than your girlfriend. Theoretically speaking, couples ought to spend V day together ya? You got my heart shattered you know? WHO AM I TO YOU? it's getting complicated man! Suddenly my morale went low.-050207-0135
I had actually wanted to vent my anger here just now, but fortunately a short nap balanced my mood. I come up with a new category of people whom I dislike! Those are the ones who like to make a mountain out of a molehill. It means two things, either they think I'm a fool or they are the drama mamas. Even passing a casual statement needs substantial evidence to back up ya? I just don't like the feeling of being accused of something I did not do. Perhaps my tone was a bit inappropriate just now but I don't mean it. I'm not a fool alright?Someone teach me anger management ok? I gotta curb my temper.There is no love sincerer than the love of food.I just love this quote so so much.You know something called "A ZA ZA!"?don't tell you.this is my motivation.i'm always reminded of these words to fight on.-020207-2332
HATES!
-LIZARDS
-players
-unreasonable toots
-almond
-going for morning class
-being treated as transparent
LOVES <3
-baking
-cosmetics
-boozing (w/o getting a heavy head!)
-people who dote on me
-acts of service
Not looking anymore other than a stupid notti.
hey, if you know me well enough, i bet you'd LOVE ME!
Hah..I dug out this pic!! suddenly there's this red crazein me..Read about Cleo's 50 Bachelors just now when the advertisement shockingly popped out after I cleared my emails. I was like "WOW"..The guys really have what it takes to be featured in this competition. Looks, bod, charm, you name it, they have it! I think Joe Leong has the best sincerest smile but I think I will vote for Darren Sng. It's kinda weird. How come they are still bachelors when they have everything girls dream for? Hmm..
Seriously lah. Those bachelors have the abs and every single one of them is all buffed up. They really look like models..*whistles*
NONE can be compared to my dear though. In syl's heart, pat is still the best! If he's still available, would have asked him to take part but the thing is..he's taken! haha..
I was standing by my kitchen's window this early afternoon. The day seems to be quiet and the momentary nostalgic afternoon air suddenly reminded me of the time when I was still a primary school kid and still needed my aunt to fetch me home from school. The view across was a narrow pat which was exactly where we would walk along every afternoon. I'm truly touched and grateful for what she had done for me..-270207-2346
The night, so calm and serene, is the best time to pen our thoughts isn't it? Well, it's the time of the day I love most. With class95 love songs playing in the background, what can be a better way to destress?I received a few comments these few days. Leroy and Woei Tang said I've changed after CNY, looking prettier than before. Even yesterday Nana said that I looked different. Hmm..what could be the reason? When asked, they can't even pin-point the root of cause. They said that now I have a different kind of "wei dao". Haha..Could it be maturity or could it be that I'm in love? Love makes a whole lot of difference yea! Sweet O Sweet~Whatever it is, I think that's the growing phase in life, the transition from a lil' girl to a young woman. That probably fits more into the picture.Thinking back, my looks in the past kept changing.short black hair+specs>no specs>shoulder length hair>long hair>brown hair>gold hair>red hair>makeup+manicure+pedicureHaha. That's the change from a nerdy looking geek to a sweet young woman. But there's one single thing which has never changed over the years, which is READING! It will never ever be my past time. BOO.-270207-0003
BAD SUNDAY MORNING. Was rather disappointed over something. & ya, I hate "-.-" symbol. So people out there, STOP SHOWING ME THIS FACE! Wait until the day comes when I can finally accept this irritating face. Till then, if you persist, you gonna get it from me.Today is Jeff's birthday (25/2). Woei Tang, Lydia, Eugene and me celebrated for him at Crystal Jade Kitchen (Takashimaya). Me and Woei Tang bought a Bakerzin cake for him. I don't quite like the white chocolate but overall the design beautifully resembles a bed of roses. It's named "Desire". Woei Tang and Lydia bought a wallet for him. I guess Woei Tang is the big spender for the day. Food's on him too! Talking about food, you must not miss Crystal Jade's congee!! No joke, it is thick and filling..yummylicious! I had pig liver and kidney congee. I used to dislike pig organs because of the smell but the porridge broke this tradition. We ordered other side dishes as well.Eugene and I really have no chemistry at all. It's so difficult to start a conversation with him. Well, so be it lor.After dinner, Jeff and I went to Taka Square. Amazingly, I saw Sam and Amelia! OHMYGOD the last time I saw them was like 6 months ago. Gotta catch up really soon man! Another incredible thing that happened was when I saw Nana at Orchard MRT. We were standing side by side and we couldn't really recognise each other. We kept staring into our reflections and finally confirmed we were who we saw. Haha. Talked to her in the train and ya..I miss my working peeps.I guess I made someone angry tonight. Am I giving false impressions? Weijie called me laopo out of the blue and he got offended when I didn't called him laogong. What's wrong? His testimonials are like....anyhow giving me a status without my approval.The word "laogong" undertakes a new meaning to me now. Unless the person is really the one I love, I will not create unwanted misunderstanding. I used to call Sam that, but perhaps all's been the past when I used the word to joke around. I thought they will understand or feel the same way as me. Now then I realise that perhaps such stuff should be treated tactfully.Now, there's only pat.-260207-0007
An unforgettable night. It's been some time I've last stepped into office and yesterday I went in to clear some work. Didnt know that there was a preview at night and thus met pat there. Had food delivery and dinner in the office. We shared a box of beehoon goreng and some tarts. Full full full..After dinner, we both went outside to sit around and talk. There was a small step whereby we sat and spent some personal time together. He took a puff while I just continued drinking my water. That's the kind of personal time I yearn for. It doesn't have to be long..even a few minutes together will be quite sufficient. After preview ended, he walked me to the bus stop and accompanied me to wait for the bus. Can the bus come later?haha...Pat still had to return to office to prepare for today's event..It's amazing how a kiss and hug can do wonders..hmm..I think almost everyone in the office knows about us. Even Danny asked me about Pat last night. Gary should know about this, I guess..Leroy, Kristy and Theresa saw us too when we're leaving office..well.. that's the power of love. It makes us wanting to freeze every second, every existing time just to keep it for the both of us. -240207-1317
Happy New Year to all!
Before CNY has even knocked on our doorsteps, I was wondering whether I have the opportunity to go to pat's house. I've been choking on this question ever since but I didn't have the courage to pop it to him. Why? Because I know that the answer will not be what I want to hear so instead of meeting a dead end, why not I just move on? Perhaps time is not ripe yet and meeting the folks is nowhere in sight.
I have bad panda eyes these few days despite for the fact that I've been sleeping like a log. This holiday is the best time to replenish all the energy I had lost by recovering all the sleeping hours, as much as possible. Quite true. I sleep and sleep until I grow lazy...Didn't accomplish much but today I decided to do something!!! Yep, I did the laundry and ironed all the clothes. Ironing is my forte ya..Creases gone gone gone!
The not-so-bad thing is that I have learnt something this holiday. Cycling made me realise that one should be forward-looking. Pluck up courage and give your future a dash forward. When we keep harping on our present state, things get more and more shaky. On the other hand, we should not be afraid to meet challenges. Though it gets a little uneasy in the beginning, who can say that it will not be smooth-sailing following on? I finally mastered the skill of making turns through knocking against the walls and bins and there were so many times the bike collapsed on me. Life without adversities will definitely not make a fruitful learning journey. Agree?
Perhaps I have changed. There is always this wild inner child in me which I have not displayed over the years or even up till now. How can I unleash it? I want to be a bad girl, can I? Of course excluding smoking etc..I wanna stay out. I wanna break my curfew. I wanna be a wild chic. I wanna be more daring. I wanna go pubbing.
-230207-0033
I name today the "bak kwa" day.I could not believe that I actually join in the activity of lame people: QUEUE. In the past, I thought that these people are plain lame and have nothing better to do than to waste the time standing under the hot sun and letting your legs hurt like nobody's business. Yet again, I was wrong. To think that I'm one of these lame people today! Ya..I better believe in what goes around comes around. Hence, perhaps some unpleasant badmouthing words should stop coming out from our mouth ya? So, I feel that we should not be stingy with our compliments. As for the horrid bad stuff, let's keep it to ourselves.I queued for approximately half an hour for the bak kwa. I think it's worth it. Though i have not tasted it, praises are rushing in from across the streets. In case you're wondering, I bought Lim Chee Guan's bak kwa, the No.1 BBQ pork in S'pore if I'm not wrong. This is better than what I had earlier expected of the queueing time which would take like 1 hour. I can't help but feel that God loves me. YAY.Oh ya..while I was waiting for a bus home, I was "blessed" with 30 mins of idling and looking at people. The wait was freaking long! I saw this old man who was rather pitiful. He was walking all by himself. Having some difficulty in walking, he walked in half steps. Yup..very slow-paced. I kept looking at him, don't even know why but just felt sorry for him. He wore a shirt and pants and trackshoes. I got this bitter feeling of..don't know what and why also.In the end, I spent like more than 60 bucks to get the bak kwa for myself and those for granny. Hope she loves it:)Hah. I pampered myself again after the last treat on Valentines Day. If no one loves me, I gotta love myself right? Yeppy, live by this principle! Did menicure and pedicure and some nailart on my fingers. Love it!Tomorrow. A race against time for last minute shopping for cosmetics.That's all folks!-170207-0044
OHMYOHMY! I admit that I love cuddles and hugs and stuff. But it never strikes me that cuddles is my superpower! Haha. Once again the rule of the thumb is: you gotta have a hot bod honey!
| The Keys to Your Heart | You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
hmm..almost everything's quite true and similar to pat coz he took this test before. but..i don't view marriage as something that will hold me captive for life. it's not as scary as what it is made to seem.
| Your Hidden Talent | | You have the power to persuade and influence others.You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think! |
| You Are a Prophet Soul | You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.
You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul |
| Your Birthdate: September 11 | You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month. |
| Your Aura is Blue | | Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.The purpose of your life: showing love to other peopleFamous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, OprahCareers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor |
Saw you 3 days back. Yet it seemed as if it happened centuries ago. At times, waiting doubled with a few moments of missing, made my heart scream in pain. Where's the commitment? I've taken a step back and contributed more than you do in this relationship. You said that it's easy to maintain a relationship, but how is it going to be done when the effort's been coming from only one party? I do feel frustrated. I keep on contributing but what have I been receiving? Woei Tang said "don't bother to mind-read"..true. I moved forward even to the point of shedding my self-pride to express my feelings simply because I respect and love you. Have I touched your heart? Is it very difficult to see you, to receive your sms or your call at least to feel that you care? This is becoming more and more like a long-distance relationhip my dear..Even lovers need some time apart, i understand, but is this too over-exaggerated given the fact that we are in the same country? Time forbids and distance hence grows.Status: single.I'd rather free myself from some expectations for now.i'm serious this time.Haven't been feeling too good lately. Emotions is my vital acupoint. Too many things happened and I have never felt as tired before, though I'm exam-free. Sometimes I wanna get away from home. Pressure's been coming in all directions and shooting specifically at my soft and meek character. I'm so sick of it can? Why must my bro be the dictator? And why must I comply to his demands all the time? I don't want conflict and so I gave in. I've been giving too much and he becomes too dependent on me as a result. Why can't he do simple things? If he can't even have a firm mindset to solve the slightest and most trivial matter, I can't see how he is able to make big decisions in the future? LEARN LEARN LEARN and keep on accumulating experience. One can never get enough of learning new stuff and through adversities, we are given the opportunity to learn to fight on. You can't expect life to submit to us right? You must ask for what you want and take the initiative to talk. Things won't come to us out of the blue. GROW UP! WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND SUCH SIMPLE LOGIC?FED UP.-120207-2300
Wordless for days and when the right day came, we only exchanged words like hi and bye. I understand that you're busy so I didnt want to hold up your time and hence I left the office very quickly. When I turned back to look and say goodbye to you, how I wish time would freeze for us to be the only characters in our own world. But the real busy office life never seems to give us the opportunity, a space to breathe. Many things can happen in this period of time but I'm doing my best to shirk them away if possible. Even cube will not make my heart waver. For my stand is strong, my only belief is that there is only you in my heart and hope that I mean to you in the same fashion. Reality may keep us apart, but love keeps us near to our hearts. I didn't miss you any lesser in the passing time and through the wonderful memories, I could vividly see your image floating in my mind. I just accepted the fact that I may have to spend Valentine's without you. Well, you have your own priorities and maybe time is not yet ripe for me to become one of those. I respect your decision though deep down I lament over the failure to make you appreciate me more. It's a choice I gotta live by at the first place. Let's live heaven's joke yea?my hand for you to hold--090207-2324
MONKEY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argh! I feel terribly unwell. Thanks to FUSE, which gave me the runs. How come I'm lactose intolerant? My tummy feels super duper weird..help..I still have alot to study for Optics!So what's Valentine's day to you all? Is it called Friendship Day too? Its understandable if you spend this special day with your buds when you're still single. It's hard to explain when you spend this day with your buds rather than your girlfriend. Theoretically speaking, couples ought to spend V day together ya? You got my heart shattered you know? WHO AM I TO YOU? it's getting complicated man! Suddenly my morale went low.-050207-0135
I had actually wanted to vent my anger here just now, but fortunately a short nap balanced my mood. I come up with a new category of people whom I dislike! Those are the ones who like to make a mountain out of a molehill. It means two things, either they think I'm a fool or they are the drama mamas. Even passing a casual statement needs substantial evidence to back up ya? I just don't like the feeling of being accused of something I did not do. Perhaps my tone was a bit inappropriate just now but I don't mean it. I'm not a fool alright?Someone teach me anger management ok? I gotta curb my temper.There is no love sincerer than the love of food.I just love this quote so so much.You know something called "A ZA ZA!"?don't tell you.this is my motivation.i'm always reminded of these words to fight on.-020207-2332
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