ive finally witnessed for myself how fragile and unpredictable relationships can be.it takes only a second to end a year's relationship.just as simple as that.how i wish i have the ability to console him.yes i do empathise with him but i have no idea how to make him talk to me.its scary when someone shuts himself up from the world outside and goes into isolation.to some people,breaking up is no big deal.its just a matter of moving on,in search for the right one.however,to someone who's facing such setbacks in their first relationship,the wound is going to kill him.he takes it so seriously that he may even inflict harm on himself.that's how pessimistic a person can get.now i so-called see the true colours of human.the character of a person changes with time that passes so readily.perhaps the reason behind it is that when one enters into different phases in life,his or her needs and perception differs from the past.we see more things and somehow our expectations grow higher,hoping to indulge in material wealth or something more than that.for instance,the man a woman wants is no longer one who loves her whole heartedly,or is willing to sacrifice his life for.the mr.right is one who has the financial capability to pamper her from head to toe,who lays a path of comfort and ensures a lifetime of luxury.
love,is something i begin to lose trust in.its too fragile to withstand the slightest storm.love resembles the game,UNO STACKO.when all is calm and serene,the relationship develops and progress further,just like how the pile of blocks gets higher.however,it doesnt mean that it gets more stable with more blocks building up.in contrary,it gets shaky and unstable as the centre of gravity is lifted.when it is on the brink of collapsing,the next move becomes the most crucial one.this can either make or break the entire structure.the effort put in building the structure up till now collapsed with a vital push.thats it.
i always thought that women are the ultimate victims of a cruel relationship.i never thought that guys actually do not feel any better either.if not for today,i still have the concept that guys dont treat a relationship seriously.well,love indeed can make a grown man cry,washing his face with endless streams of tears.
perhaps i should have predicted such an ending,so i wont make a promise so easily.if im given a second chance to choose,i wont commit and throw myself into this valley of sorrow.
i feel that its natural for someone to be upset over a breakup but i find it foolish if he degrades himself.if a guy quits smoking for the girl's sake,it is bravery.if he reverts back to his old self(or smokes even heavily) just because of a breakup,i tell you this is goddamn stupid!what is this supposed to mean?he tortures himself with more puffs and puts his own life at risk?or is it that he simply wants to gain sympathy from his girl?which is which?or maybe the better method is starvation??in such situations,even the smartest person can become the dumbest fool.its possible that one can do anything in times of madness.well,he chose to starve.well done-.-

before others can love us,we must first love ourselves.~

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HATES!
-LIZARDS
-players
-unreasonable toots
-almond
-going for morning class
-being treated as transparent

LOVES <3
-baking
-cosmetics
-boozing (w/o getting a heavy head!)
-people who dote on me
-acts of service

Not looking anymore other than a stupid notti.

hey, if you know me well enough, i bet you'd LOVE ME!