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Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
i deliberately choose this time to blog because my parents are asleep, hence i can have the personal space to whine,to grumble,to SHOUT!

there are so many things to do that if one additional thing comes in the way, the workload is gonna overflow.
let me rank according to severity:

1) pre-reg closing date
2) uni preparation work

thats why i was saying, the nearer it is to the end of the month, the more stressed up i am.

i have yet to complete my quota. i plan to meet woody next tuesday on my offday plus i gotta have my 2nd injection at mount elizabeth, so my whole day was fully reserved. so this all means that i must complete my quota before tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know, i just received my enrolment package from sp. it's ridiculous of them to set the deadline for submission of forms on the end of march while they only post out the packages somewhere in mid-month. what's this? so, i have no choice but to clear my leave to set time aside for medical checkup, photo-taking and submission of documents to sp PERSONALLY.
what's more frustrating are those application forms which are full of words and things to fill in.
just by looking at it tarnish my mood, lest talking about having to read them in detail. it's a torture for a hyperope like me! *poor eye muscles*
i told rena, i mean it is fine if im doing all these for the thing i like. she knows me. i dont like to feel that im forced to do something. i believe that no matter what we face, we must deal with it WHOLE-heartedly. i dont like pressure. i love freedom, freedom to do my own things at my own pace. dont force me, it will backfire. i also told her that this is all carved by cirumstances. im forced by circumstances, but ironically they will lead me to a brighter future. so even if i dont like it, i still gotta do it, JUST DO IT.
i say, this relates to the theory of swimming: hold your breath and you can swim for as long to the final destination. sylvia, hold your breath for 2 years and you'll be out of the water.

tonight after reading through the enrolment package, i almost choked on this invisible pressure. if not for rena who accepted my grumbles, i guess the stress can snowball to its peak.

notti, where are you?i wanna chat with you.

if only i can drink then dance, dance and keep on dancing...DANCE MY BLUES AWAY!

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