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Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
i said this in msn just now: "if u ask me, seriously, i hate a life like this."
yes, i dont like stress, dont like someone as a dictator, and i like only my comfort zone.
wonder when i can put an end to all these...
it's driving me mad dude!
'cause i already had an answer, i hate studies, period.
life is not as fulfiling as it seems, god knows how hard im trying to brace myself up and to struggle for something i dont even see the purpose in doing so.
im stale, im stiff, im liveless, im as alive yet as dead as a zombie.
im tired, im pale, im as healthy yet as weak as a patient.
i grumbled, i complained, im as whiny as a child yet they are unheard.
i sighed, i lamented, im as unmotivated as a good-for-nothing yet i fought hard to create hopes.
but i say, strength is limited.
probably, i say probably, it could give way.
til then, i may just collapse.

as long as love is not concerned, the most torturous thing in life is doing something against your own wish.

just when im puking out these shit in msn, fortunately someone threw me a pleasant surprise.
he's back from india.
god knows how worried i was, wondering if he can adapt to the local food there and if his stomach is fine.
since now he's back, i can rest my worries :)
good news, he will be coming soon.
however on the downside, it means that he wont be coming to my chalet.
nevermind.........
at least i can see him again.
you know its kinda weird when i was emo-ing then something got my heart racing?
it's like 360 deg turnaround...yea...

if u watch PS Man, you will understand that kind of absurd, unexplainable feeling when 马小茜 chats online with 夏和杰.

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