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Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
two days ago something upset me greatly.its the love and trust i had for someone,which turned into betrayal.oh well,i shall name the person "G".i trust G alot because he is my dearest family member.no matter what,i will not keep things from him and will tell him all that i know.i thought that since we are so close,a bridge of communication and faith has long been built between us.whatever so-called secrets we have,we will not hesitate to share with each other.this explains our relationship.however on that day, i realised that G has been keeping a huge secret from me.im sad that he had a problem that was troubling him,yet he decided to bottle everything to himself.well,he really did a good job in putting a false front,until i cant see his true self.as family members,arent we supposed to open up to each other and be frank?i always believe that if we put many brains together,no problem in this world will not be solved.many brains are certainly better than one.we can brainstorm for solutions or at least we can weather this difficult patch of time together.in contrary to giving my genuine love,all i get is a sense of betrayal.i felt betrayed.G took my thing without permission and kept me in the dark all this while.if not for the letter which brought everything to light,i guess im still the gullible one.this incident really hurts me.though G has apologised and realised his mistake,i dont think the feeling of unhappiness has left my heart.the problem is that im not angry with him.he has atoned for his mistake through his apology and i can feel that he genuinely regretted his actions.however,the mere fact of his dishonesty came as a total shock to me.i could have suspected anyone else,but it never came across to me that the person i trusted most was the culprit.even my daddy kept assuring me that G would never be the one.how i wish that none of these happened and i can continue to give my trust to him.now im on tenterhooks.im not sure whether he will do this to me again.im not sure if i believe in the right person.im not sure who's true and who's lying to me.my greatest lesson was not to judge a book by its cover.even if the person is our dearest family member?

[i fear.i really fear.somehow im lost.im stuck in a whirlpool of deceiving faces which pretend to guide me through this beautiful world.all are lies and facades.who can i trust?any moment when you dedicate your trust to someone,he/she will hurt you back in return.and maybe to our family members,we better be cautious too.im in a dilemma.]

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