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the.girl


Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Monday, October 16, 2006
some things somehow gonna change.i can see where the problem lies and i did my best to work out a solution.here comes another problem again.will anyone heed my advice?sometimes i thought that its within my control to change the situation,just then i realise that its actually beyond what i had imagined.had i overestimate or underestimate myself?right from the day when a new semester started,i hadnt been giving myself a pat on the shoulder saying like "hey,well done.you achieved what you wanted.good effort!".i feel that i didnt give my best these few days,be it in school or at work.i still cant figure out why,but it seems that a certain sort of system is lacking somewhere.its still challenging for me to strike a balance between my commitments.perhaps im still in the adaptation period,i suppose.guess what?i made blunders everywhere and this makes me frustrated.how on earth can i be so blur?i guess its true that a certain element is missing and this shall cause a major turning point.oh well,my mind or heart actually kind of gets distracted along the way and wanders far far away from the task i should fulfil.
forgive me.i can only say im sorry.i will change.
recently,i got an irky feeling.i feel that whatever and whenever i talk,people just dont seem to listen to me.be it important stuff or just a normal friendly chat with others,i cant get their attention.it cant be that i spoke too softly,that only people standing 1cm away can hear me.or is it that i spoke a foreign language which they cant comprehend?i get so damn sick of such a feeling.it sucks!this attributes to the mindset which i have some time back,that im invisible.

things just dont go smoothly.rocky paths here and there.what or who exactly holds me back?could it be the haze?possible though.

the haze is getting bad.






so,take care ya?

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