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Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Friday, October 19, 2007
just met up with my dearest (yes i mean it!) friend hours ago. i had not done this simple gesture of hanging out with friends for a long time, simple because i couldn't find anyone. sounds ridiculous isn't it?
i seem to have lost touch with my secondary school friends like cindy and grace who were just 2 years ago, my close sisters...now, we've all gone our separate ways. grace went to college while cindy has her honey with her. emily is the only one left whom i meet more often in school nowadays. so talking about friends, i'm not the kind who have tons of friends at different corners of the world. i have 1 close close friend now. she is koh suat hoon. she's the one who is willing to listen to my problems and we would not hesitate sharing incidences and emotions with each other.
some friend perhaps look harmless to you, but in real fact, they are hypocritical. to put it simply, they are plain selfish.
be frank to you guys, i don't look forward to school every single day. what keeps someone passionate in going to school may be because of peers or even because they enjoy what they're studying. i have no friends to make me feel eager to rush to school. in fact, i have a "close" friend per say but deep inside i know her character. out of desperation, we became good friends but i still remain cautious somehow. i knew that she wanted to join the majority and feel popular and accepted by the rest and she even complained that i caused her to be isolated from the class. my heart aches upon hearing such statement. if you're truly my friend, you wouldn't have said that. everyday when i enter the class, i just found a corner and sat there by myself. i could not even bother to utter a word to the rest and there's no need to smile to them as well 'coz they don't even want to look at you in your eyes. so what for? if they treat me as transparent, i will treat them the same way too :)
hence, i find my days extremely torturing. no one seems to like me. am i so loathesome? why do you all have to isolate me? am i not part of dopt2b02? that day when i was waiting for the lift with the other cliques, as expected, they just talked among themselves and perhaps they didn't even realise i was there. and please don't talk to me with pitiful eyes. i don't need your pity. if you don't want to talk to me, FINE!
I HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!except those guys who are equally good to anyone, everyone.

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