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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Thursday, January 31, 2008
i think the news came a little too sudden.it really caught me in a state of confusion. my only concern is i hope that this friendship will not be a chip that i win and lose at the gambling table just like that. practicality aside, but to let you know, if you hadnt groomed me, i will not be who i am today. this, i will always be grateful of. i relish the hope that one day we can hit the kbox again! dumbly.stupidly.foolisly.tootootly.naively.innocently............ but it's just the pure thought that counts. n notti..i stay on just to see you again! yea...now you're my reason:) know your status in my heart le ba? -310108-0154 Tuesday, January 29, 2008
洋葱。就好比我的心， 摆在那里敞开着， 只是等待着你， 是否愿意一层一层一层地剥开， 发现你就是我心里最深处的秘密。 如果， 爱不需要理由， 你可以毫无理由地喜欢上我吗？ 我不需要三个心愿。 一个就够了。 真的。。。 只要能够和你再相遇， 哪怕只是一个两三天， 也会是我们最完整的回忆。 其实， 我幻想着， 假设我们可以在不受打扰和拘束下， 开开心心地租下度假村， 把它占为既有， 成为我们的安乐窝。。。。。 哦。。那该多好！ 难道这一个小小的心愿， 很难去实现吗？ Friday, January 25, 2008
end of it.fuck u. cant even get the figures right! add more trouble to my flu only! maybe our very last meeting ends after my exams. good nite guys! my whole head hurts. tell me, how to study???????? BV leh..what a heavy module. i can't even use my binocular vision properly le. my mind, my eyes..fogged with a vision of u. doc, i think u dont need to prescribe anti-biotics. just prescribe notti will do. he's the only flu med that works on me! notti notti, fight those virus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -250108-0039 Thursday, January 24, 2008
finally. the flu bug has gotten me!stupid runny nose! I HATE RUNNY NOSE! waste tissue.LOL notti ar..u really brightened up my day last night.. just a word "really??" freed those butterflies into my stomach and i almost thought that i'm flying at that instance. ..still say that you're not notti. guys are NOTTI! haha yesh, im single but unavailable now. im only available to you. same as the way as how only u can enter my room. coz the door's already opened for u! *yes u can come in..* rena, all the best to u! u dont need miracles lah.. u got the magic! -240108-0016 Sunday, January 20, 2008
is there a place for me to rant?i guess only here..... can't rant at home, my secret will be heard. can't rant outside, i will be taken as a looney. what about here? this is my personal space!!!!!!!!!! corey comes in "lai shi xiong xiong" i scared my resistance will be running low. i didn't know why i had promised him about the date. but i just knew that it's just on a friend to friend basis. that's why, with such an overpowering force coming in, i need notti now!!!!!!!!!! come and talk to me and give me the security. i still love u very very very very very much. so i wont give corey the chance yet but what if..what if...he asks me to be with him? i need an answer from notti. geez! i don't even dare to ask him lah. notti..if u allow, i will agree immediately. wo shi zhen de hen xi huan ni....................................................... u've spoilt me rotten when u came online. but lets share the moments together again ok.......................... NOTTI I LIKE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU~~~~~~~~~~ -200108-2327 Friday, January 18, 2008
we'r the 3 toughest women to deal with!nothing shakes our affirmation when we really persist. who are we? my beloved friend. my beloved chubchub and me! we got inked up with 3 most problematic guys. but ended up becoming toot toots. me too. im one of those. for loving someone who stole my heart in that hotel eversince. fate~u better believe in karma! -180108-0119
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side I've never felt this way before Everything that I do Reminds me of you And the clothes you left They lie on the floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were And all I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear Will always get me through the day And make it ok "I miss you" true. when can i hear the answer from you? must it only be when i go down personally to look for you? don't lie. u said u will try..........try missing me..... -180108-0050 Thursday, January 17, 2008
god, can u tell me what's with the age gap?is he not the one for me? mr corey..notti boy.. one appeared after the other. i'm still firmly attached to notti boy....... i confess ilu. -170108-0155 Tuesday, January 15, 2008
when we knew too much of it, we are dying to know less.when we're a step too far behind it, we are dying to fill our queried heart. hmmmmmmm...is there a way to strike a perfect balance? just like how a seesaw carries two weight yet maintaining this kind of balance? or, when can we know that we've overstepped the borders and it's high time to empty the excess water from an already full cup? i yearn for a magic mirror which can show me how my fate goes about, but, only the good things be told. bad stuff? i don't wanna see! can i? what for? when i know that the things i'm going to see later on will make me upset? i still think it's more appropriate to let nature run its course..some things are not up to us to episode it as a story 'cause they're not meant to be in there. ignorance is sheer bliss. but not all the time, ya? if not, people will call you toot toot! hahahaha.......................... i got a deja vu. sense that something is coming my way......... or rather, it's someone.. will that be a good start? i guess i'll feign ignorance, see whether he can keep up with the chase! hah. this always happens in the year's new start! 2007 was like that......................................................though i didn't know what was the reason he left, now it doesn't matter anymore........ life is a mystery, what's coming next? -150108-1817 Saturday, January 12, 2008
an unexpected surprise!when that msn window popped out suddenly, it's him! thought who's the one initially.. HIM! am i dreaming??? hello???? this is the 1st time that he talked to me first! perhaps things are progressing linearly with time and ya..our conversations are becoming more light-hearted and lame. but i like it! it goes to show that there're no barriers between us, hence we can open up to anything under the sky. he's notti but i still like him. then there comes this feeling of reluctance when we bid goodbye.. don't know when we'll chat again. nonetheless, i'll never forget our conversation today.. so relaxinggggggg..... just nice for a friday evening.. oh ya.. apology to suat hoon n anselm, whom i guessed, for talking abit too little to them.. coz of him lo....hehe..hope u understand.. -120108-0130 Friday, January 11, 2008
i'm going to sleep now..it's been like this for a week. tired to the max! when can i enjoy a long sweet sleep????? boy, please gimme yours. muacks! though my mind is taken away by tests, i still leave a place for you. ya, i think of u. this time i won't miss the chance anymore.. "i don't know where i STAND with u and i don't know what i MEAN to u, but i always know that whenever i THINK of u, all i wanna do is BE with u." nights! -110108-0241 Wednesday, January 02, 2008
i made a simple wish for uand one for myself. my new year resolutions.. as i strolled along the wooden pathway during sunset, i miss you. as i laid on the hammock, i miss you. as i sat by the sea at night, i miss you. as i looked at the stars, i miss you. as i enjoyed the peace of the night with my beer, i miss you. visualising that someday we can have the resort all by ourselves, just us.............................. hug you while u ride the bicycle, bbq, enjoy the sunset together, set fireworks, holding hands, go fishing, u grab my hand so i won't fall into the muddy water. missing you will not be a past tense. but i'm all by myself. how could u be so cruel? boy, how are you doing? down the 3 cans of beer travelled along my gut, but still, my first drop of tear in the new year went to you:) happy new year people! -020108-1700
原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语 我不懂得如何更爱你 影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离 原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你 原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己 你收的干净 我也会不留一点痕迹 -020108-1641 |
