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the.girl


Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Thursday, January 21, 2010

things are not so smooth.
1st up, i hate my fringe.
and my friends said it doesnt look nice.
so dead.....
why are changes so hard to be accepted?


nvm.
2ndly, 2 months later i'm going to do something that's against my wish.
lets say if im being accepted tomorrow, i wonder whether or not i will enjoy my days in school.
im beginning to feel the pressure for tomorrow's (err...i mean later's) interview.
edison said think of the future aspects once i graduate from the course.
but but.............
the problem is i dont see them.
my heart feels weird right now.
its no wonder i dont get the kind of anxious anticipation.


2 years will pass very soon.
but 2 years of not being able to do certain things stretches time longer than what it is.
so how am i gonna pass the interview when i cant bring myself to say those heartfelt responses.
u get it? the feel isnt right!!!!!!!!
can i say that im being forced to apply for the degree?
this is then what i truly think.


i know that im not going to stay in this trade forever.
i may set up my own optical/apparel shop, do some voluntary work, be an air-stewardess, join the media industry, be a model etc...........
i like these better manz.........
do these need a degree?


and i thought of notti again.
hmmm..these few days are slightly busier and hence i managed to successfully push him a lil bit further to the back of my brain.
but i happened to see his pic tonight.
it triggered images of him that im trying to hide myself from.
he's offline but silly me still opened the conversation box and guess what?
i typed and backspaced my message.to and fro though i really wanted to tap on "enter".
but once again, so what if i sent out my message.
i know that i wont get a reply.
hmmmm..how to describe it?
message bottle that drift from shore to shore?
from sg shore to kl shore.

its something like that.


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