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Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.

Screams
Friday, April 09, 2010
even me myself also could not believe that i manage to independently pass an hour's time outside.
the keyword is 'independently'.
yea..i was alone, all by myself.
the reason for staying at home rather than going out by myself during my free time is because i dread boredom.
boredom is scary and i detest eyes on me whenever im outside.
i mean..i neither dress like an alien nor a monster, so people out there can you kindly stop looking at me?!
im shy alrite......
since i already set my mind to look for mummy at parkway parade today, i gotta be mentally prepared to wait for her alone.
to me, today is definitely a big breakthrough.
i took bus 10 on a 45 min journey to PP. cool rite?
hence, the accomplishment is self-control, resisting the resident temptation of taking a cab.
yeah! i won!
so while waiting for mummy, i went to starbucks and ordered a dark mocha frappucino.
there i was, settled on a seat, plucked my earphones on, tap on starbucks wireless and joyfully surfed net on my iphone.
how cool was that, dude!
but still i gotta admit that though i can somehow attempt to spend time alone by myself, i cannot do without my mp3.
its only when the music plays in my world that i can avoid people's stare and do my things naturally.
this happens all the time when im traveling alone in public transport, shopping and basically doing anything at anywhere away from home.

am i a weirdo?

my mood sank deep into the valley last night.
same issue, same argument.
this time was worst than before and because of this, i suffered from the uncommon insomnia.
went to bed at 2+ and i thought maybe a little music could make me sleep better.
hence, i utilized sylvia's all-time remedy that was to listen to my mp3.
hehehe..you know...this is actually the upgraded version of turning on my hi-fi all night (yea, i tried before on several occassions).
however, last night's attempt was not exactly very successful.
at 3+, i thought i felt only 40% of its effect.
ahhhh..better than nothing, at least the music managed to drown my insomnia by a tweeny bit.
then, i turned off my mp3 and slept through the night.
haiz.
you know what, sylvia is really silly.
she even thought of sms-ing notti, though unsure if he will reply.
but she just want to send out an sms to him.........................................
all it takes is a gamble.

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