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the.girl
Im the classic virgoian who believes in perfection. Sometimes people dislike me because they find me acting too cold towards humans. Or maybe they just can't accept my high standards. So, love me or not, u decide.
Screams
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
yesterday some of our class people went back to school for senior's FYP.ken asked me to take temperature of them.that pseudo was the first one whom i take temperature.oh my god!he was so scared of me.c'mon..ive done such work before.have some faith in me man....in the end ruth and me had fever.hers is 37.4 and mine is 37.2....not surprising at all for me..my classmates said that im hot.my body temperature will always remain at this kind of level.dont know why either.maybe im WARM-blooded.but i dont feel sick at all....weird.ken took the measurement of our tear prism.i also dont know whats that.my tear prisms for both eyes are 0.2 on each side.quite high...other people are usually o.1....does that mean i cry more?LOL....that machine was so bright.after that part was completed,my vision became dark.....the later part was even funnier.the machine allows us to look at our own eyes.so cool....that indian senior used a cottonbud to lift up my eyelid.he's so gentle..not pain or what....for sihui,she felt uncomfortable about it...haha.the indian senior and edmund senior said that i was the best patient and can get the best patient award.LOL.yea indeed.yy has always hit the nail in my heart.yep until now i still cant forget him and how long am i gonna wait????must i really set a time for it?will it make a difference?if i set 6 months,then after that does it mean that i will be able to forget him?what if i set time as eternity?im so dumb.im so lost.sometimes i hate and doubt myself too.im the only one suffering now.he does not know.and if he knows,he will not be bothered either.he's lucky and happy enough to have found his queen.yet ive fallen in love with someone else's king.i feel so damn out of place.gorgor told me the similar thing about setting a time for this.i remembered him telling me on iag1 booster session.i cried. i dont understand.maybe my mr right has long appeared in my life but its just that i didnt notice him?is that really the case?ive always said that i havent found the right one.or is it because i havent learnt to let go and still hang on,that cause me to refuse anyone to gain entry into my life?im shutting everyone off.i know that.because my heart is fully reserved for monkie.going at this rate,will i stay single forever?even though i may say no but who knows?if i keep on being so foolish.what will happen when im old?will i be a single pathetic soul with no one to accompany me to walk through this journey of life to the end?i totally have no feelings for other guys man...i really dont feel like falling in love.if i really do so,my partner can only be monkie.but thats IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i enjoyed my sleep last night.ive always had this habit of talking in my sleep.since young.haha.thats why im so afraid of revealing any secrets unknowingly in my sleep.perhaps due to stress in school and other problemsm,sleep-talk is what i needed most.its kinda funny.its like after talking for some time,then you realise that you actually sleep-talk.then you still want to continue talking.KNOWINGLY.thats me.last night sleeping halfway through i realised that im sleep-talking,yet i continued.this morning when i woke up,i felt better.because ive voiced out some of my unhappiness last night.ive cried.ive shouted.ive used vulgarities?!oh ya..i scold people too!hahahaha......... [in life,everyone needs companionship.true?] [for couples in love,time is eternity.] -060606-0936 |
